THE DASTARD

wala lang

2009-11-10T18:47:00.001+08:00

school day tomorrow. boo!!!

i have saturday class. boo!!!!

my saturday class is 1-7pm. booo!!!!!

weeeh

2009-11-07T13:50:00.002+08:00

well, well, well...

i'm back. i dont know how the heck how.

naka-sign in lang ako. simple as that. eh dati di naman kaya.

oh, well.

hopefully, this continues so you can see more of me.

wahahaha...who wants to see more of me??

;)

the hunt for the skeleton mode

2009-08-19T14:32:00.002+08:00

so, here i am again, in the ust main library, specifically the internet room...just to post on my blog. hahaha. that's a lie! i will not waste my time coming here para lang malaman niyo kung gaano ka-boring ang life ko.

im actually here to take an online exam in lts. our internet connection at home kasi is so bad that i flunked the last time i took the exam there. pero may topak din yun site ng ust. paano ba naman kasi. i answered question #1, tapos ang tagal ng submission so i logged out. may ten minutes time limit kasi ang test. then i logged in again and answered question #2, and lo ang behold! i was surprised to see the warning sign na 1 minute na lang ang natitira! where did the other minutes went eh nag-logged out nga ako?! even if i dont read the questions and just answer randomly, i would fail because the connection is really bad. ten out of ten nga ako, i exceeded my time limit by two minutes naman. 3 questions lang yata yun pumasok sa ten minutes. so im 3 out of 10.

so...i emailed our instructor last august 9. wondering if he can explain the "mystery of the missing minutes." but, he didnt reply. how rude! so i emailed him again last week. still no reply! bahala siya! it is so not fault! sabi niya pag may problema during the exam, we should logged out. that's what i did! if there are other problems, we should email him. that's what i did! boo talaga!!!

well anyway, that was weeks ago.

did i ever mention...no, i believe i did not...i am...the ...well, im the class president. wahahaha. im not trying to be humble here, but im not president material. me no have leadership skills. kaya lang ako nanalo kasi lahat ng magagaling, officers na ng mga orgs so di na raw sila pwde. and another reason is that majority of my classmates this year are my classmates last year. so siyempre, mas kilala nila ako compared to other nominees from the other sections last year.

well anyway, the reason i told you that so that you'll understand why im the one who went looking for the missing skeleton for 30 minutes. haha. di ko alam kung totoong skeleton ba siya o plastic model lang, basta nag-skeleton hunting talaga ako sa buong medicine bldg (our bldg together with future doctors and nurses). gusto kasi ng professor namin na may skeleton model habang tinuturo niya ang skeletal system.

so ayun. i came to school 45 minutes earlier. went to the dean's office to ask for permission. and after some begging, pumayag na rin. so i went to a room in the first floor, kasi nasa room na yun lagi ang skeleton model. wala. so tiningnan ko lahat ng classrooms sa first floor. actually, silip silip lang kasi may mga klase nung time na yun. nakakahiya kung makita ako ng mga teacher. wala. so i went back to the dean's. wala na yun nakausap ko kanina, si kuya jess. so umakyat ako sa 6th floor para hanapin siya kasi dun siya minsan. wala. punta uli ako dean's. dun na siya. tinanong ko kung saan yun model. sabi niya first floor. sabi ko wala. pumasok siya sa isang classroom para tanungin. sa room 609 o 607 daw. 6th floor po yun. so umakyat uli ako. may nakasalubong akong friend so may kasama na ako ngaun. walang skeleton sa buong 6th floor!

grr...baba ako 4th floor. paxok ako sa gross ana lab. may nakita akong cadaver. malayo kaya i cant describe much. maitim siya. payat. tuyo. konti lang buhok. hindi nakakatakot tingnan. mas nakakatakot pa tingnan kung may cover siya. haha. malaki yun lab kaya may 4 akong skeleton model na nakita sa mga sulok ng room. my friend and i were tempted to steal them. pero di na namin tinuloy ang aming balak kasi baka multuhin pa kami. so baba uli kami. buti na lang nandun pa rin si kuya jess. sabi niya di raw pwede kunin yun mga model dun sa gross ana lab. boo! so nag-suggest siya sa room 209. buti na lang meron na dun. haha. pero di kasi siya 100% skeletal model. may mga muscles, nerves, ek ek pa siya.

so the problem now, paano namin i-aakyat yun sa 6th floor? buti na lang nakasabit siya sa pole at may gulong sa ibaba. nakakahiya kaya! lahat ng mga tao tumitingin sa amin. i am not used with all the attention! haha. tapos ako, clumsy person pa. i kept on tripping sa mga gulong. yun friend ko tumatawa na lang.

since yun bldg namin connected sa ust hospital, we were able to go in the hospital and used the elevator there to go up the 6th floor. yun babae nga sa elevator, muntik nang sumigaw nang makita ang skeleton model. tinatanong kami kung totoo ba raw yun. haha. hindi po namin alam. pero mukha siya totoo. except for the muscles and nerves (na mukhang rubber bands).

and so finally, we were able to bring the model in our classroom. buti na lang di nag-absent yun prof (kasi madalas siyang nawawala), kundi sayang lahat ng pagod namin ng friend ko.

nakakatuwa yun prof namin sa biosci. pero that's another post na lang. kasi may time limit kami dito sa internet room! ciao people!

i opine that he's a moron

2009-08-10T14:56:00.002+08:00

i just want to complain about a certain english teacher (he's not yet in the professor level) who has been teaching in ust for a few years now. i dont hate him. i just dont like him. yes, im judgemental. but i believe that my reason is valid enough.

i don't like him not because he doesnt know what "opine" means, but because he refuse to take a few seconds of his precious time to look at the dictionary and see what that word means. as an english teacher, it is reasonable to believe that he has a dictionary. maybe even one on his bedside table. but how come when he saw an unfamiliar word a mere student wrote, he quickly considered it as a mistake? why cant he check the dictionary for the possiblity that that word may exist in the freaking english language?

i wrote that word in a freaking essay. essay, okay. it's a written form about opinions. so naturally, i wrote: " i opined that....", and that ass put a questioned mark on the word opine and considered it as a mistake. hey, this is not about my grade. this is about my pride. a pride he trampled on because he indirectly considered me a moron. yes, im a moron. but im not that moronic not to know the word opine! just because im a mere student and he's a teacher doesnt mean that he cant learn a new vocabulary from me!

mwahahaha

2009-07-29T10:40:00.002+08:00

sa main lib ako ng ust. may internet room dito. libre! actually, sa tuition namin kinuha. haha.

now that im here, i dont know what to say.

this week is exam week. im suppose to be studying for physics right now. it's so hard..............................

my life....is either on the crossroads, or just..lost.

who cares

1st day

2009-06-15T16:46:00.002+08:00

what's wrong with my blog? sometimes i cant sign in. and sometimes i can. obviously.

first day of school??

useless. ang haba ng pila sa entrance ng building namin. may nagchecheck kasi kung may fever tsuva. isang kilometro na nga yata yun pila eh. di pa yun single file. sa huli, dahil nga marami ang mala-late, tinanggal na nila yun checking. haha. walang kwenta talaga.

dalawa lang dapat ang klase today kasi may misa sa umaga. yun isa, di sinipot ng titser, yun isa naman..wala lang. sarado raw yun lab. haha. kaya nga walang kwenta eh.

sayang pamasahe. pero yun isa kong kaklase, sabi sayang daw perfume niya. ewan ko dun sa metrosexual na yun. haha.

halu-halo kami this year. di ginawang alphabetical. so, i still have friends. wahahaha. yun nga lang daming strangers.

ang highlight today...may naligaw ng gwaping ng freshman. english speaking. galing mindanao. yun metrosexual/bisexual kong kaklase (mentioned above), biglang bumait. di ko na idedetalye, basta ang ending, mukhang may bago na siyang boy toy. wahahaha..

nobody commented on my eyes. bwahaha.

this is embarrassing

2009-04-21T13:11:00.002+08:00

i do not want it. okay, im lying. i want it just a little, since i sometimes complained about my drooping eyelids. i have friends in ust who sometimes ask if im sleepy or what.i even had a teacher who called me to recite because i looked bored to her. im not! it's just my eyes!

but it seems not only the people in ust notice my eyes. my mother also. well, she should, she's my mother after all. and so, she insisted that i have blepharoplasty, a.k.a. eyelid surgery. i forgot the chinese term, even though i heard it at least 50 times already.

it all began when my sister started complaining about her eyelids. she actually had the same operation when she was 15 years old. she did it few weeks before her high school graduation. her doctor was recommended by our paternal aunt who had her 3 daughters undergo the same operation. i guess it runs in the family. well anyway, my sister was complaining and she wants to undergo the same operation again. so my mother brought her to a plastic surgeon in metropolitan medical center. her previous surgeon is already retired. my little brother and i had to tag along because our car is still not in sshs, so we have nowhere to go but come with them. so this plastic surgeon, dr. sia tiong gam, looked at her eyelids while i tried to stop my brother from destroying the clock in the room. i dont know what's wrong with him and why he seemed so fascinated with the ticking clock.

anyway, the doctor advised my sister not to undergo the procedure because she already did it once and the second time might make it worse instead. my mother, thinking that her time is wasted, called me to ask the doctor if "i" could have the surgery instead. the doc indeed agreed that my eyes dont look lively enough. i told my mom im not so sure about the procedure so we left. but i guess my mother got bothered with the doctor's opinion so she started calling hospitals and looking for surgeons who can do the procedure. she even called belo and calayan. haha. but she doesnt like belo because, well, you saw belo's eyes. not exactly a good example.

i told my mom yes to the operation if she could find a good doctor and at the same time cheap. well, she did the challenge and went back to sia tiong gam. and told the doc to do it this monday. THIS MONDAY! as in, yesterday. of course, i was surprise. im gonna meet you guys this friday and saturday. my eyes, i mean my eyelids, wouldnt be a pretty sight even on that day. but it was already book and my mother insists the earlier the better so i would look more normal on enrollment day on may 27. thanks mom.

and so, here i am now. a monster. my chicken ass brother got scared the first time he saw me yesterday. my sister brought him to my room to see me and all he did was grabbed my sister's hand like a 2 year old and talked to my sister in this little voice, "baba na tayo, atsi." he's 11 years old for pete's sake!

cant exactly blame the dude. i also dont like looking at myself in the mirror. morbid. my eyelids are swelling and colored violet. each of my eyelid is sewn together making them bulge more. and because i really want to gross you out, there's dry blood on the sewn part making it look more disgusting. my eyes look smaller and until now, they are still not...in equal sizes? basta, hindi siya pantay! i dont know why.

the operation took more than an hour. i dont know why again. my sister's took less than an hour and hers was painless. guess it depends on the surgeon. the operation took place at the new bldg. at the back. on the 13th floor. lucky me. a nurse asked me to wear a hospital gown over my street clothes and asked me to change my sandals with the slippers the hospital provided. they asked me to lie down the operating table? bed? a nurse cleaned my face with a lot of...tissue wipes? haha, i dont really know. two big glaring lights blinded me when they opened. surprisingly, i did not get scared. then i saw doc sia tiong gam, complete with a cap and mask. thank God, i did not see him with a scalpel. i just blinked up at him while he talked to his assistant, a guy who flirts a lot with the nurses. a nurse came up to the doc and asked him about numbers. sizes apparently. sizes of what? i found out later it's the injection. or size of the syringe. i dont know. they did my right eyelid first. i was awake the whole time and the only pain i felt was something slicing on my eyelids. i also smelled different things like pentelpen and something burning.

most of the time, i just listened to the conversation around me. the surgeon was concentrating and did not talk much. but his assistant? the flirt. he talked, joked, cajoled, teased and did other verbal actions that got the two nurses (one married, the other one graduating next next week i think) giggling and flirting back. the assistant only got a little quiet when the surgeon asked him for the skin hooker. i dont know what it looks like but it apparently hooks my eyelid and pulls it open. it doesnt hurt because the slicing part i first felt in the beginning turns out to be the big injection, which has anaesthesia, piercing through my skin. ugh. anyway, my eyes were open most of the time when they got at the sewing part. i saw the thread. i saw the tool they used as a needle, and well, i just told myself to calm down and not panic. i think that i was basically expressionless throughout the whole procedure. poker face. haha. yep, expressionless even when i heard the assistant made a sound because the thread broke. even when i felt my own blood run down my face. even when i saw blood on the clothe the nurse was holding. thinking back now, i dont know how i manage it.

i talked to God a couple of times. basically asked him to make everything all right.
and yeah, i guess everything will be fine---after many weeks. thank God the bleeding stop today, yesterday, i can still feel blood dripping from my operation, scared my mother. parang im crying blood kasi. haha.

im actually so pathetic yesterday. i had nothing to do. i cant read book because my eyes have trouble focusing. i cant even look up straight because it hurts, so im always looking down. angie, this is the reason why i cant ym with you yesterday, i have trouble looking at the screen. haha. i feel better now. ponstan works! i dont feel any pain right now, except if i sneeze or laugh out loud. the only irritating thing so far is when my sister and mother stares at me like i sprout horns on my head. my brother still refuses to come near me. his loss.

right now, i always have my sunglass and eyeglass with me. even when im in the cr. i just dont feel right exposing my morbidness, if there's such a word, to people around me.

when you see me, dont stare.

hey yo!

2009-04-12T14:11:00.002+08:00

mwahaha...bwahaha....

well, anyway, my bro (the elder one) is going to atlanta, georgia (is that the right spelling?) tomorrow monday. he's going to stay there for two months. his company, mitchell and madison (again, not sure with the spelling), is sending him there because they lack people. he's the one chosen because he's already an american citizen due to being born there 22 years ago.dang it, he always has all the luck.

life is again...so good!!! no big brother for two months!! bwahaha. dont worry, i dont hate the elder dude, we (the rest of the siblings and i) just got use to no big brother on weekdays. and guess what, for some unknown reason, we prefer it when he's living in an aunt's house. just gets to show you that we're not really a close family. huhuhu...sniff!

im serious now: you know what makes me cry? not because of sadness but because of anger? my father. he can be crappy some times. but im not going to make an issue here. just want to vent a little of something out.

well, at least he's the one who paid for most of the things my brother will need in the u.s., like clothes, techie stuff and other tsuva. well, he should, after what he's always doing. nakakainis talaga. naaawa ako sa mama ko.

well, anyway, you guys enjoy your summer!! im trying to. it's just that i already have scars because of the bloody warts!! dont worry guys, im facing this wart problem as bravely as i can. ;)

mommy, i feel hot

2009-03-22T16:56:00.002+08:00

vacation has come! life is good...if you dont think about the problems life brings..

musta naman kayo mga pips?? ako...well, tumaba raw according sa dad ni princess arreola. haha. nakita ko kasi sila sa church (united evangelical church of malabon) kanina.

well, ganun talaga ang buhay pag hindi stress...wahahaha...inggit kayo mga nagpupuyat dyan noh.

okay lang naman ako dito...di pa alam kung ano talaga gusto ko gawin sa bakasyon. for now, i spend time watching tv and reading showbiz stuffs. haha...kasayahan ko talaga sa buhay ang usisain ang buhay ng may buhay.

bumili popsy ko ng mga dvd's sa divisoria nung friday. ang isa sa mga binili niya twilight. haha...pinanood ko again...ang comment ko lang talaga ay ang pangit ni robby patty!! ba't ganun noh? kung sino pa ang pinakabida siya pa ang pinakapangit? yun actor na nag-play as james pogi pag maikli ang buhok. napanood ko kasi siya sa unborn (now showing). okay naman yun movie na "the unborn." nakakagulat. haha.

"jamby wants to be born again"

well anyway, kinilig mama ko sa twilight. pinanood niya nga uli the second time ngayong umaga (pinanood na niya kagabi). kaya ngaun, nagbabasa momsy ko ng twilight. bumalik siya sa kanyang teenage years! hahaha..

well, good luck sa inyo dyan!! yun mga may klases at exams pa!! at ako? magpapataba pa lalo. heehee

what else is new

2009-03-14T16:53:00.003+08:00

10 useless happenings in my life:

1. i finally possessed the pc solely. my sister finally has her laptop. problem is, the pc has a virus

2. i failed to attend church these past few sundays. so many stupid reasons.

3. im one of the contestants of the intercollegiate pautakan contest. it's a group competition. it's kinda like a quiz bee. our college is one of the lowest. which is something new, since the college of rehabilitation sciences is usually one of the hightest in the list. apparently, im the bad luck since im the only one who's new in the group. and you know what's pissing me off? lumabas ang question kung ano sinimulan ni robert baden powell. turns out im the only one who knew the dude. courtesy of sir eug. anyway, mali pa rin kami. kasi the answer should be scout/boy scouts but i wrote scouting movement. i still dont know the difference between the two.

4. i still hate our theo prof (see #5)

5. since i was excused that day (because of the pautakan), i missed the 2nd quiz in theo. and since she is lazy to make another quiz, she refuses to give me a make-up test. and since she is ALWAYS FORGETFUL, she did not excused me but instead wrote "absent" on the attendance sheet even though my friend just told her that im excused! sum of 2 quizzes is equal to 100 points. i only got 20 points on the first quiz. she didnt hear me say that i was running for honors. i know that because she said that if i pass her subject, she wouldnt give me a special project. the good news is i think im going to pass her subject because my first shifting grade is high enough. the bad news is that i'll probably get a 3 because she will compute my grade with my non-existent second quiz. in short, i'll get 20 over 100! dang it!

6. we have no final exam on phil lit. instead we watch zsa zsa zaturnnah (starred by eula valdez, the only other actress i know there is wilma doesnt) at the ccp last sunday. the musical play is funny and entertaining. a lot of obscene comments and lewd remarks in the script though. and some of the scenes are disturbing (i.e. the kissing of guy and a gay). and there was a guy there who loves to show his abs. anyway, i just hate it because i didnt do well in my reaction paper. i got the names of the characters wrong and i didnt follow directions on how the paper was suppose to be printed. i got so many deductions na tuloy. and it's equivalent to our finals. and who knows what else since our phil lit prof doesnt give quizzes and i have a big fat ZERO on recitation.

7. finals next week. craaaaaaaaap! first one on monday is theo. im not trying to be mean here, just stating the fact, ANG DAMING TRADITIONS NG CATHOLIC! HIRAP ARALIN! and of course, our theo is worse because of the prof.

8. another exam on monday is math. okay na sana eh, kaya lang puro problem solvings. i hate problems solving, simply because i suck at it. nawala pa sci-cal ko. huhu.

9. this is not really a happening in my life, but an opinion. i hate hoping. i hate having goals. i hate dreaming. someday, i'll probably tell you why.

10. um...okay, probably the most serious one. i committed a tiny, itty bitty sin just this thursday. i dont know if God is punishing me or what, but i had a bad day on friday. but that's not the issue here. the issue here is that i wasnt able to sleep well this saturday morning. i dont understand what i feel. it's something like worry, guilt, fear, anxiety...whatever tsuva...depression...i dont know! i said sorry to God but i havent confess my crime to that person. well, that person is scary. so well, i dont know what to do now. why do Christians have to suffer? no scratch that, i deserve to suffer, not other Christians. im really a moron.

baby wanna hug...

2009-02-23T14:44:00.003+08:00

nakakatamad mag-post. haha.

finals namin sa march 16 to 20. cant wait.

my life is still the same.

well, not really. i went to church this last two sundays. im now trying to take my spiritual life seriously.life is becoming more meaningless without Him. ^_^

my academic life is fine. except that i flunk my total grade in comparative anatomy lab this 2nd shift. 57 grade ko. passing 60. tinamad kasi mag-aral eh. haha. 1st time ko bumagsak sa total grade ng isang shift. pero okay lang, pasado pa naman pag combine together with my 1st shifting grade. and pwede pa bumawi this last shifting. but it's more difficult. PUSA NA KAMI!! we're going to dissect Krizzy's relatives this friday. for now kasi, we're studying the 90 muscles of the cat pa. 90x3=270. boo!

what's the times 3 for? that's for the origin (where the muscle originates), insertion (where the muscle move during action) and action of each cat muscle. we have to memorize them by friday.it's hard because some of the origins and insertions are long phrases. aralin mo ngayon, kalimutan mo na next day. di pa ako nangangalahati!! tapos sa 90 muscles na yun, 25 lang ilalabas sa test. boo!

nung friday night nga di ako nakatulog masyado. kasi before i slept,i studied some of the muscles. kaya ayun. nagigising ako at the middle of the night with different muscle names running through my head...pectoantebrachialis...supraspinatus..flexor digitorum profundus...extensor carpi radialis longus...iliocostalis...wala pa yang OIA ah!

but then, as long as di pa ako nagpupuyat, okay lang. haha.

theo continues to suck. specifically our theo prof.

my multiply ako. pero di ko talaga multiply. haha. wala akong contribution sa multiply na toh. friends ko sa ust ang gumawa. tapos joint account pa siya.di ko nga alam ba't pangalan ko pa ginamit. tingnan niyo na lang kung gusto niyo para makita niyo a part of my life in ust. but if you're gonna comment there, dont put anything about this blog!!!

click here!

long time no post

2009-01-28T16:08:00.003+08:00

gotta be quick. baka magtopak uli globe. ilang beses na ako nag-attemp na mag-post, kaya lang di kaya mag-publish. hmf!

dont worry, i dont have anything yucky to tell you guys. im trying to get to know my spiritual self better. haha. last saturday our whole class went to tarlac. up the mountain to attend mass. sosyal noh, misa lang sa taas pa ng bundok. dun kami sa monastery of tarlac. parang baguio nga, zigzag and daanan paakyat. dun kasi nakatago yun isa sa mga 3 pieces ng cross ng jesus. di naman pinakita yun cross mismo, yun lalagyan lang. boo! walang kwenta. tapos ngaun pinapagawa kami ng "mahabang" reflection paper.

pero in fairness, ang ganda ng lugar. maliit lang yun simbahan, pero yun area surrounding it maganda. tapos makikita mo yun mga mountains, yun village na may maliliit na mga bahay, yun malawak na green grass...ay basta, maganda siya. sorry, di ako poet. i cant describe it very well. all i know is if i were a painter, i would have love to stay there forever and paint the scenery. naks!

enjoy naman buong klass. may karaoke pa sa bus ride. by class number! so walang takas! guess what i sang? alam mo naman, ironic talaga buhay ko. galit ako kay sarah geronimo pero napunta pa rin sa akin yun "forever is not enough" niya. pero okay na rin yun, kaysa kay piolo pascual. yuck! yun ibang songs may rap, natuwa buong class kasi pati theo prof namin naki-rap. hahaha...

pero dun lang siya nakakatuwa. kasi ba naman, ang arte niya. pinadonate niya kami. each and everyone of us. isang sako ng bigas, cooking oil, mga kape, gatas, condiments, toothbrushes, toothpastes etc...pero nagcomplain pa rin theo prof namin. umabot ng 2 boxes and 2 big plastics ang donation ng buong class, pero ang sabi niya, "kung ganyan lang kaunti ang ibibigay niyo, wag na kayo pumunta." hello, sino tinatakot niya? parang may gusto pumunta sa una. kasi naman, 5:45 am ang leave ng bus. anong oras na kaya kami magigising. eh 6:30 pm pa naman uwian namin the day before kasi may lab. parang di niya alam tuloy kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng "donation".

ay bahala siya.

wala kami paxok ngaun!!! wahahaha. st. tomas aquinas day kasi. pero dami namang assignments and quizzes. kasi prelim week na namin next week. as usual, nagpoprocastinate rin yun mga profs dito.

nakakatuwa compa lab namin ngaun. lalo na yun practicals. lahat kami bagsak! hahaha....well...

we just dissected sharky cielo (shark ng group ko; 4 kami sa isang group). ang lalaki ng liver niya! parang saging! haha. pero mas malaki pa sa saging. dissected na rin si pidgeotto (our pigeon). wala kaming turtles, sa ibang group yun. pero pinatay na rin. kawawa nga mga hayop eh. yun mga pigeons nilunod, pero di naman sila nag-struggle. tapos sa mga turtles naman, hinila yun mga ulo para i-injection yun leeg ng lason. sniff. tapos ang brutal ng pagtanggal ng mga shells (carapace and plastron). ginamit ang saw. tapos makikita mo yun mga dugo dugo. madugo rin sa pigeon. ginupit mga ribs, pagkatapos hinila ang lahat ng feathers, para makita yun mga visceral organs. makikita mo yun mga gloves namin puro dugo talaga. parang nag-opera kami ng tao.

pero there's one subject that still didnt change. p.e. volleyball. di pa rin ako marunong mag-serve. yun pinanood ko yun twilight, nasabi ko sa sarili ko na i know how bella feels. kasi sa amin, sa akin din lagi patungo ang bola at di ko talaga siya natatamaan ng maayos. at ilang beses na rin akong natamaan sa kung anu-anong parte ng aking katawan. sniff.

pero you know what again? i feel happy. i dont know why. a while ago, i was eating lunch, and then i realized that im happy. parang ang dami bigla ng endorphins ko sa katawan. gusto ko sumigaw sa tuwa. pero i dont really know why. i just feel happy. i kept on thanking God nga eh. though i dont know what He did to me. buti ngaun medyo nag-normal na emotions ko. haha

you know what's yuckier?

2009-01-10T22:15:00.003+08:00

my ust friend came from Baguio and gave me a keychain gift. you know, the typical keychains that are made of wood.

it has my name written on it.

and the disgusting part?

it's shape like a penis.

well, it was carved to be like a penis. very detailed actually.

not that i know what one really looks like.

it's my sister who affirmed it since as a student nurse, she sees a lot of penises on her duties.

and now, i have a very hard penis in my room........hehe >_<

it's january????

2009-01-02T15:58:00.002+08:00

do you know that pringles has lactic acid? oh sorry, stupid question. it's just that the internet is soooo slow that i had nothing to do but read the ingredients printed on the pringles can. this is all my elder brother's fault. he did nothing in his christmas break but download movies. maybe i should call the cops and report about a brother of mine who's pirating movies. that should put him out of the house. but then, my mother might murder me if she realizes that she has to produce money for the bail.

wow, i just realized that my last post is on december 4. almost a month from now. well, i dont have anything to apologize since i have nothing to post anyway. or that my sister is hogging the computer most of the break. or that stupid globe doesnt give a good signal for the internet.

you wanna know what i've been doing this break? aside from the sleeping for more than 12 hours and eating and drinking and watching pirated dvd's my father bought? why should i tell? it's embarrassing. you'll just laugh. or maybe pity me.

okay.

i've been reading books.

love stories.

specifically romantic stories about "virile" indian men and "passionate" white women.

yeah, gag right.

these books are old. well, older than the stupid 19 years (ouch!) of my existence. these are the books my mother and her sisters loved to read when they were teenagers. my mom gave these books to my sister and i. i dont know if i should even consider them as my inheritance. hahaha.

crap, im so mean. my mom and 4 aunts love these books.

but anyway, some of the books are not that bad. i mean some have serious plots and are not wholly about romance. and i have to admit the novels are informative about the history of america. the wars and the treaties between the whites and the reds (indians). though i didnt really remember the name of the wars and treaties. im reading for entertainment, not history.

and i tell you, i was really entertained!!

wahahaha...

dont worry, im not becoming some pervert who enjoy the sex and rape parts. it's just that some of the scenes are really ridiculous and i just cant take them seriously. there's this novel entitled "cheyenne captive" about a 'virile' indian who kidnapped a white woman.

well anyway, i cant take it seriously because the white woman is naked half of the novel. okay, almost half of the novel. im serious. what is wrong with the author anyway? and the white woman and the indian already had sex on chapter 3. ugh. and they had more sex. and more. but that's not the reason she was naked almost half of the story. it's because she was almost rape four times by different man of different cultures. can you believe that? there were indian, two americans and a spanish rapist. geez. but she was never raped because her indian lover would always come on the nick of time. sayang! the indian's name is Iron Knife. so you can always read the white woman saying these lines breathlessly....."Oh Iron Knife, i knew you would come....Oh Iron Knife, i wouldnt know what to do without you!!.....You are my life Iron Knife, i would never go back to Boston!, it's only you that i want!!" and my personal favourite..."Iron Knife, take me!!"

wahahahahaah......grabe, nakakatawa talaga!! pati sa mga rape scenes natatawa ako!!

actually, i think the author is a sadist. there was this antagonist indian girl name Gray Dove. she's always trying to seduce Iron Knife with her big boobs. anyway, she was gang raped when she was 14. the scene was so detailed actually. shudder. but you dont have to pity Gray Dove. she's ruthless. Gray Dove also had sex a lot of times with different men so you can imagine how many sex parts the novel has.

when i think about it now, i dont know where the climax of the novel is. parang tuloy tuloy lang kasi yun story. no climax. it just end. and i really got pissed off because the author kept on repeating the same adjectives...soft shoulders...heavy breasts...tiny waists...but nothing could beat this when it comes to the number of times mentioned..."she could see his manhood rising under the loincloth" or something like that.

hahaha....

i am now very disturb....but have no fear...im trying to bring my brain back in order by reading gaudium et spes written by the second vatican council for my theo report this january.

: )

hoy baboy!

2008-12-04T17:06:00.000+08:00

my serotonin level is so high that i did nothing but go to school and sleep this week. im such a pig. no wonder im getting fatter. and our popsy loves us so much that he always buy cakes for us. so of course, i ate lots of cakes quickly. agawin yata dito!!

are we guys gonna still see each other this xmas? you might not recognize me anymore. oink!

"you dont even say hi to me"-bella

2008-11-29T23:29:00.003+08:00

stupid globe broadband. laging may topak. gusto ko nga sugurin yun pinakaboss ng globe, kung sino man siya, para sigawan. nagbabayad kami every month tapos laging may topak naman!

twilight was....normal...ordinary. hindi ako kinilig. parang wala lang. natawa sa kaunting scenes, pero yun lang. i didnt feel anything. wala lang. okay, i know you can get my point now.

i wasnt disappointed because i didnt expect anything.

pero if im going to do some criticing, marami akong masasabing negative. pero let's not enumerate na, baka mawala pa ng gana yun mga manonood. haha. pero no regrets naman. may mga okay rin naman siyang mga scenes.

ANG PANGIT LANG NGA NI EDWARD! parang tinapay na maraming flour. haha

it's been a long time

2008-11-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

hay, ang tagal ko na gusto mag-post, kaya lang agawan kami ni atsi ng computer. pag nasa akin na ang computer, kailangan madaliin ko kasi kailangan nga ng atsi ko o kaya masyado nang late.

buti na lang inatras deadline ng theo. wahahaha...

hay naku, i have a bruise again. if you would see my left ring finger now, you wouldnt be able to see may natural skin color because it's covered by the icky color of bruise.

nadisgrasya ako sa volleyball this tuesday. yun tinapon na bola ng partner ko ang lakas. instead of catching it, it hit my poor finger and it was pushed to the opposite direction. i got worried when it started swelling and when i cannot bend my finger without causing intense pain. parang buntis nga yun daliri ko dahil ang laki talaga ng swelling. i thought my finger was broken. good thing it's only the nerves.

my mother was very angry when i first told her. she called me stupid. ouch.

ni-straighten na siya ng friend ng tatay ko na masahista. ang galing nga eh. una ginagalaw galaw lang niya daliri ko. tapos yun relax na ako, bigla na lang niya hinila. napa-aray ako. haha. pero healing na siya ngayon. masking parang kumalat ang bruise. pero okay na kasi nakakatype na ako without the pain. parang ang sarap tuloy maging PT.

okay naman buhay PT student ko ngayon. we're memorizing scientific names of animals na. blah. Trimeresurus flavomaculatus. common name is pit viper. haha. as usual, ang dami uli imememorize. memorize din mga different parts of bones ng shark, turtle, pidgeon at may isa pa.

kaya ko yan!! memorizing is better for me than solving math.

speaking of math, trigo kami ngayon. di na ako highest. puro kasi careless. :(

nakakatawa nga eh. may intercollegiate (colleges between ust) math contest nung thursday. kasali ako at 2 pa galing UNO at Sakya. imagine me, a math contestant. hahaha. siyempre, 5 out of 20 lang nasagutan ko sa first round, so di na ako nakapasok sa second round. di ko alam sa mga kasama ko kasi di ko na tiningnan yun mga results.

hay naku patricia, logic namin di memorize. kailangan logical thinking talaga. eh wala nga ako nun. i remember my high school years wherein i cheat the computer exercises and seatworks because i REALLY HAVE TROUBLE USING LOGIC.

nakakainis. nakakawala ako lagi ng mga gamit. i hate myself.

nakita ko si lea yap sa CR. pareho kasi kami ng building, nursing lang nga siya. anyway, sabi niya tumaba raw ako. ganun. hmf! sabagay, kain tulog pa rin ako rito. di pa naman ako masyado nagpupuyat di katulad ng iba. hahaha.

im gonna watch twilight tomorrow!! nakakabitin daw sabi ng iba kasi ang ganda raw talaga. hmm..let me be the judge of that...

peekaboo....i see you!!

2008-11-15T19:09:00.001+08:00

so this is college life...

your writing hand must suffer

your eyes get strain

and your brain...

just threatens to explode.

hmm...

blah bleh blih bloh bluh

2008-11-11T19:26:00.002+08:00

both my arms are so colorful.

volleyball is my p.e. for this sem. and so now, my ams have red tiny spots on them. in fairness, masaya pa la ang volleyball. haha. di ko kasi siya na-enjoy kay ortiz. parang nawala nga yun pagkatakot ko sa mga bola eh. well, at least, volleyballs lang. katuwa kanina, hinahabol pa talaga namin yun bola. masking strict yun teacher at madaling magalit, okay naman yun way of teaching niya. well, dapat lang siguro kasi siya na yata ang pinakamatandang p.e. teacher sa ust. wahaha

colorful arms ko kasi di pa gumagaling yun bruises ko on each arm. on the first day of school kasi, i "slipped" on the stairs. well, my feet did. ang ginamit kong pampigil para di ako magtuloy-tuloy pababa ay ang aking arms. kaya ang laki tuloy ng mga bruises. para akong binugbug. una red siya. tapos naging violet and blue, tapos green and yellow, now yellow na lang. haha. parang work of art talaga.

ang nakita lang naman sa akin ay ang statue ni mama mary. galit kaya si mama mary sa akin?

grabe, pinagtawanan ako kanina sa class. nakakahiya. pero not my fault!

time ko na kasi mag-lead ng prayer, so nag-"glory be to the father, to the son and to the holy spirit" ako, imbes na sumagot sila ng "as it was in the beginning.....", tumingin lang sila sa akin. yun pala, di pwede i-pray yun kapag early in the morning. oops. tawa tuloy sila. eh malay ko ba. di naman ako katoliko.

in fairness, im starting to get piss off with the catholic stuff. oh well.

blah

2008-11-10T19:06:00.002+08:00

im a PT student! im not majoring in theology!! may comparative anatomy pa kami!! nalilito na nga ako sa mga urochordates, cephalochordates blah blah eh

nang-extra pa ang logic. nosebleed.

but you know, im not yet stress. may be it hasnt sink in yet.

hmm..

%^&*

2008-11-10T18:50:00.004+08:00

is she insane???

there's another deadline in theo. december 1. we're suppose to make a powerpoint presentation about gaudium et spes. 'hope and joy'

this is our source. check it out. 58 pages according to microsoft word.

http://www.vatican.va/archive/hist_councils/ii_vatican_council/documents/
vat-ii_cons_19651207_gaudium-et-spes_en.html

and you know what really sucks, we're going to report it. okay, only a few are unlucky coz we all have our respective topics. i just happen to be one of the unfortunate ones.

the suckier part is that what we're going to report is not the powerpoint presentation we will make. she has her own presentation. in short, we should really know the topic so we can discuss whatever part she puts on her powerpoint. the powerpoint we will make is useless. and we are not allowed to read the powerpoint during reporting. we must just glance at it and see what it is all about and we explain it according to what we studied.

freak.

25% of our grade

the suckiest part of all is that we still have the stupid church to do. gagawa pa ako ng mapa kung paano pumunta doon from ust. ang nagagawa ko pa lang ay kalahati ng introduction. di ko pa siya magawa kasi wala pa ako info (history..organizations.. blah blah..). ang dami kaya.

tapos may 6 assignments pa. gawa pa ng mahabang prayer. gawa pa ng isa pang powerpoint presentation tungkol sa mga santo. ugh. puro this month ang deadline. and church thingy lang ang december 5.

church and sacraments din kami, Pat, yun prof lang talaga!

freak

2008-11-09T19:31:00.005+08:00

do you know what my hatest subject is?

i thought i would do okay in this subject, well since the topic is about God and blah blah. (Sorry God, no disrespect intended) but you know...this subject takes a lot of my time at home. okay, i wont blame theology, i would blame the freaking prof.

the prof who gave me my lowest grade in the first semester. she gave me 2.00. frankly speaking, i feel that i dont deserve that grade. please. i got a 1.75 in zoo and my theo is only 2??? makes no sense since if you look at my quizzes and shifting grades, my theo is obviously much higher. and do you know what really pissed me off? a classmate of mine flunked some of her quizzes and has 9 absences got a 1.75? where is the justice in that? did she just dart our grades?

in high school, i got some grades that are not that high, like my 80 in 1st year math for example. but i have never gotten mad because i know i deserve it. but this? this is just ridiculous.

i shouldnt be ranting right now. but you know...i just want to crucify her. she gave us so many assignments on the first day. and we have to do this stupid project about getting information about our church. haha, like i have one. i thought it would be easy at first. i mean, st. stephen's parish is always there. but this prof had to announced that in must be near our house's vicinity. ha! i got something to tell you i-use-darts-to-get-your-grades prof, there is no church near our house. well, i dont know if you could count the iglesia ni kristo. i dont even know what kind of religion that is. and we can only reach that ?church? using a car. a 15 min. drive. yep, that's the nearest.

so yeah, i've thought of something. it's bad. it's a lie. but hey, im a bad person. im going to say that i live in quezon city in my aunt's house because she got a church nearby. i cannot say im only there for the weekdays because the i-use-darts-to-get-your-grades prof wont allow it. she said that we must really live in that place in either on weekends or the whole week. i cannot say i live in quezon city in weekends because it wont make any sense since my address in school records say im in valenzuela. so im just going to say that i stay in q.c. during school week so i can be nearer to ust.

great. why am i even exposing this to the whole world? sydney, keep this quiet okay? dont tell her or your classmates. if this reaches her....i dont know...

i'll probably just shoot myself in the head.

oh wait, we dont have a gun.

hmm..quite a dilemma

i can always stab myself with the kitchen knife...

but i might not die quickly...unless i stab my eye and penetrate the brain...but im not sure im even strong enough to do that...

poison and sleeping pills are not bad...but i might feel some stomach pain...

oh well

i can always jump off from the roof top of our building

and i'll probably end up in the news

and my whole family would be shamed.

since when did suicide become so complicated anyway?

um...why do i want to kill myself in the first place again?

haloo peaple!!

2008-11-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

pasukan na!!!

who's excited? well, not me.

i dont want my 12 hours a day sleep end!!

but then, who am i to complain? a 3 week break is already very fortunate. unlike stephenians like my brother...wahahaha...unlike those who are working and always end up working over time like my other brother....wahaha...unlike my sister who needs to come to school this week to do her nursing duties and come home to do her homeworks....wahahaha...

you see...im lucky...compare to my poor siblings...

but then...i love sleeping....and attending school 5 days a week prevents me from doing it.

ugh. why can't i just be satisfied with my life?

i dont have a life

2008-10-27T13:38:00.003+08:00

so i was blog stalking...and then i ended up in my blog...and i saw my blog...and i felt embarrassed for exposing to the whole world my sadistic nature...so i decided to post something again so people would stop seeing that...mortifying post.

so...what am i suppose to type?

my sem break so far, when not going out to parties from distant relatives and malling, is spent on watching ALIAS starring Jennifer Garner. we have a dvd from season 1 to 5 and right now im already in season 4. i always watch it in my parents room even though i cant open the aircon so it's really really hot in there. i just imagine that im in the sauna and therefore can shed some unwanted fats. i am so lazy that i dont watch it sitting but instead lying down. i feel like a pig sometimes.

last sunday we went to Uri Mart in Greenhills and my sister saw Jean Garcia. she informed my mother and i so we being chismosa, went to find her and left our father in the cashier all alone to pay the grocery. hahaha...we cannot be spies because we were so obvious. though i cannot look at Jean Garcia straight in the eye, my mother was bolder and more 'rude' that she looked at the actress from head to foot. luckily, Jean Garcia and her friends just ignored us.

when we left to find our father, my mother was asking us where do we think polo ravales is. according to my mother's "notes," jean garcia is about 5'4'' and she looks really slim and sexy. hahaha....mga chismosa talaga kami!

last saturday naman is the wedding of my father's paternal cousin's son. um..gets? haha. anyway, since the relation was so far, my siblings and i didnt want to come because it's quite embarrassing to come when we are so many. and the bride and groom are really more on strangers. but when we heard that the bride is the granddaughter of henry sy, we changed our mind and decided to go because we planned on "spying" on the filthy rich billionaire dude. well, i planned that. my sister probably planned on getting the attention of one of the Sy's. hey, you never know!

well, sadly, we didnt see the rich dude. he probably did not want to attend in fear of being watched by gossipy people like my family. haha...i told my sister na lang that we can have another chance when lj reyes marries. i told her that she better make sure she gets invited because the groom would probably be henry sy's grandson.

sorry ah..boring kasi buhay ko kaya inuusisa ko na lang buhay ng iba.

nag-aaway na naman si angel locsin at becky aguila. according to our equally chismosa yaya...nagsisisi na raw si angel locsin sa paglilipat sa dos. si becky aguila naman daw kasi ang may gusto nun. at nanganganib na rin si becky aguila kasi siya ang tinuturo na talagang nagnanakaw ng pera ni jennylyn mercado.

hay...life is good...

Can't Freaking Help It

2008-10-17T23:31:00.004+08:00

i need anger management lessons.

what do you feel when you're angry? i feel like....wanting to murder. i feel that my anger is justified. though i know that it is wrong, i want to relish my anger. i want it to burn me...to control me...to make me do whatever i wanted to do...because i feel 99.9% sure that i would have no regrets in the end.

normally, i dont easily get angry. i only easily get angry with my family. especially my siblings. most especially my sister. even though her actions may seem innocent and harmless to others, i feel that she does things just to spite me. i feel that she enjoys seeing me suffer. she's just so...hate-able.

a while ago, while we were watching tv, i commented something the show have no logic at all and my sister told me to shut up and go complain to the network of the show. she said it in an angry way. i guess she was pissed because she cant hear what the tv actors were saying. but what she didnt know (because i kept quiet) was that i got really mad with her shutting me up. mad enough to picture myself stabbing her a lot of times. yes, im a sadist. think whatever you like, but im just being frank with my feelings here. and yes, im exposing the blackness of my soul.

i know, im being ridiculous. i mean, there are times that i also told my sister to shut up so it is only normal that she can also tell me to shut up too. but that incident really pissed me off. when i think about it now, my anger seems ridiculous, but my heart feels that my anger is justified. and the lingering anger i still feel right now pushed me to go down from the third floor and open the CPU just to post on this blog. i cannot wait for tomorrow. tomorrow, the anger will be gone. but of course, it will easily return.

ugh. i just hate her. sarap patayin!

when im angry, i talk to God. and i said the same thing always. "I hope you can understand Father why i have a difficult time being serious about being a REAL Christian. it's just so difficult." i know i should ask for God's Spirit to give me a forgiving heart, but i just can't force myself to say that for i know it wouldnt come from the heart. how could it come from the heart when i feel that my "ridiculous" anger is justified. that i feel that i have the right to be angry.

i should be sleeping now. i was so sleepy a while ago that nakaidlip ako sa isang commercial ng survivor philippines. after many commercials, i decided to wash my face so i stood up to get a towel. pagdating ko sa CR, nandun na ate ko. kita mo, parang sinasadya talaga. eksakto pa na kailangan ko ang CR tsaka siya papasok. grr...

siyempre, nagkaroon uli ako ng visions. this time, sinasakal ko siya. im not a person who likes saying bad words, but when it comes to her, i really cant help but explicit some swear words. that's how much effect she has on me. i know this is bad. knowing that she can easily make me angry shows how much control she has on me. BUT I JUST CANT FREAKING HELP IT.

im not sleepy anymore. that's why im typing right now instead of sleeping. how can you be sleepy when you feel that your blood is boiling?

hay, the irony of life. i just passed the First Aid training we did today and instead of having a helpful heart, i feel like murdering someone. a very specific someone.

yes, marunong na ako CPR and rescue breathing (mouth to mouth). medyo marunong na rin maghanap ng blood pressure. kaya ako inaanok kanina kasi maaga gising ko from last tuesday to this friday. 4-day standard first aid training kasi member ako ng red cross youth council.

pero yeah...i dont feel any achievement...i just want to kill...kill my so-called twin. lagi na lang may nag-aakala na kambal kami!

i wish i could just be angelina of bubble gang and just say "Whatever." but truth is, life is not a simple 'whatever.' life is actually...$%^&*

haha

2008-10-10T19:23:00.001+08:00

hay naku, ayaw ko itsura ni edward sa twilight.

tanong nga ng kaklase ko bakit di na lang sila kumuha ng lalaki sa "the covenant" puro kasi pogi mga bida and kontrabida roon. well, i dont like the long-haired. pero okay mga itsura nila ah. di ko masyado type yun story pero i want to watch it again para panoorin lang mga gwapings. haha.

"_"

2008-10-10T18:46:00.004+08:00

if im not insane, im a moron. i wanted to use the computer since last wednesday but i cant since i thought it was broken. well, it wasnt. the problem was because of one stupid plug that was well...wasnt plugged. i kept looking at the back of the monitor and CPU to find what the heck is wrong. turns out someone unplug the stavol.

now...what now?

i shall announce something very dear to my heart.

I DESPISE PROBLEM SOLVING!

geez, i thought i'll nver encounter it again after soriano. but oh well...at least it was the final lesson for this sem.

yipee. sembreak na!

im bored. oh well. sabi ko kanina ang dami ko sasabihin. pero nawala gana ko eh. haha.

im really insane

2008-10-04T14:14:00.002+08:00

i had a crazy dream last night. well, this morning.

i dreamed that i was living in a dorm. i woke up one early morning and needed to use the comfort room. for some unknown reason, the dorm had no CR so i went outside. i walked and walked and passed beautiful gardens along the way. until i came upon a big white mansion. i went inside the mansion to use the cr. i thought the mansion was deserted but when i was already in the CR, i heard 2 women talking. i tried to escape but one of the women caught me. the woman happens to be the owner of the place. she didnt call the police or screamed at me to get out, instead she offered me a tour in her big comfort room. i saw a lot a miniature things made out of precious gems...mini luggage, mini cabinet etc...until the other woman called the owner the because of a phone call so i was left alone in the cr.

when the owner came back, she accused me of stealing. and the next thing i knew i was running inside a mall where cops were following me. i saw a man in leather jacket running in front of me and immediately i knew that he was the real thief. the thief kept on running so i followed him. suddenly, my heart was filled with so much anger for the injustice being done to me so i killed the man. i forgot how.

the next scene was inside a faculty room that looks like a court. am i making sense? i know it was a faculty room because it was filled with teachers. though i didnt recognize any of the teachers i know in my waking life. i was trying to explain my side that i didnt steal anything. no one wants to listen to me so i started crying. until a man and a woman asked me what was wrong. i explained my side of story. both of them were sympathetic.

i dont really remember the exact details that happened next. i remember being inside our house and my heart filled with anger and fear for my sister. i freaking dont know why. all i know was that my brain is telling me to protect my sister at all costs. then i saw the man who listened to me in court approached me. suddenly i knew that he wanted to kill my sister. so i killed him. for some unknown reason, i suddenly had the urge to take off the man's face. and i discovered that i didnt kill the man but my sister. then i saw the woman who was sympathetic. i told her to leave because it was a dangerous place but she wont listen to me. and suddenly, she was dead. the man who i was supposed to have killed stabbed her.

i asked the man why he was doing this. he told me that he was just avenging the thief that i killed in the first part. then i woke up.

the dream was very emotional. i experienced a roller coaster ride of emotions. though i dont know what could all these mean.

* what i've typed are not the specifics, since it was a dreams, i already forgot some details and are not sure of the exact details that happened.

oh by the way...

2008-10-02T10:34:00.004+08:00

OUR PLAY SUCKED. kinuha ng 1PTA lahat ng awards!!

on the bright side, tapos na ang 2 naming finals. the play kasi is equal to our final grade in phil his and world lit. ganyan talaga pag tamad ang mga guro. haha.

naasar nga ako kay abenir eh. kasi minutes before our play, we (well, more on they) were all panicking and shouting and screaming at each other. i was the only one relax on one corner observing. that's why i saw our ever dearest phil his prof and class adviser watching us with a smile on his face! it seems like he's enjoying seeing our class panicking. kung di lang siya cute!

well, i shouldnt be angry on him kasi nakarma siya. okay, not really nakarma. im just being mean. last week kasi nahold-up siya sa FX. aside from the driver and 2 hold-uppers, siya lang ang lalaki. he was surrounded by female students kaya siya ang tinutukan ng baril sa leeg. totoo raw yun baril kasi malamig yun. nakuha sa kanya ang 2 cellphones niya. yun isa kakabili lang niya kaya wala pang sim card. buti na lang di nakuha yun cute niyang laptop na color green. haha. tuwang-tuwa kasi kami ng mga kaklase ko sa color green niyang laptop.

so anyway, yun day na na-hold-up siya, di siya pumasok sa class. yehey! yun socio prof lang namin ang nagkwento. medyo na-trauma raw si abenir kaya nag-ala-psychologist socio prof namin kay "marc." masyado raw kasi natakot si mark sa pangyayaring iyon. according to our socio prof, "Marc was thinking of his family and girlfriend and wondering if that was the end of his 24 yrs of existence when he was being pointed with the gun." well...

i wanna live..like animal...careless and free...

2008-10-02T10:01:00.002+08:00

i told myself that i have a lot of new things to post, but now, i dont know what to post. hahaha...life's okay here...okay, except that i think i broke our printer. sorry dearest brother and sister. but im afraid you can't print using our printer. oops!

hopefully, i can convince a classmate to do the printing for me. let's cross our fingers.

ha! for the first time, i've accomplished making a powerpoint presentation. yes, it's just my first time now to really make a serious project. i know, i know, im a real moron. a moron who successfully created the presentation but failed to do the easier task of printing it. tsk tsk.

life's great......of the 5 subjects we're going to attend this friday, well...they all have quizzes. yes, every subject has a quiz. life is really wonderful!! my favorite is the circulatory system. it's so fulfilling to learn all the literally bloody arteries and veins. they're so many that i can't help but jump for joy!!

and what really made my day yesterday is the extraction of polly dolly's brain and spinal cord. her brain is so adorable, a little smash on one side, but cute nonetheless. and the spinal cord? oh...it looks...pretty...though i cannot really say because the ever-so helpful scalpel cut it. so im just going to pass polly dolly's adorable little brain...i wonder what my grade is going to be...why do i even care? i already passed zoo!! well, i passed the first two shiftings...wahahaha...it's not like the first time im going to flunk a practical...

i dont even know why im posting

2008-09-25T09:56:00.003+08:00

i should be studying right now. problem is...i dont know what to study first because they're so many.

Q: what's the common conversation topic in our class today? especially when we're in zoo lab?
A: "i think im going to shift"
"where are you going to shift?"
ITHM..COMMERCE...CFAD...ACCOUNTANCY...WAHAHAHA...

I PASSED THE 1ST AND 2ND SHIFTING IN ZOO. WAHAHA...PERO I STILL CANT RELAX KASI MAS MAHIRAP NGAUN ANG 3RD SHIFTING.

BIRO MO, PINAPAHANAP NILA SA AMIN YUN MGA SPECIFIC VEINS AND ARTERIES NG FROG. HELLO, I GOT A POOR VISION. AND IN THE FIRST PLACE, I DONT KNOW WHERE THOSE BLOODY BLOOD VESSELS ARE LOCATED.

PATI PARTS NG HEART...EH ANG LIIT NGA NG HEART NI POLLLY DOLLY EH.

blah

2008-09-21T20:05:00.003+08:00

okay, gotta do this fast, internet might stop working again.

this week was very busy. and next week would be busier. so dont expect any new posts. haha

the finals are near so the stupid profs are giving us lots of assignments and quizzes.

nothing really new in my boring life.

for now, the whole class is busy practicing for our phil his play next saturday. im playing the maid who's going to audition in american idol. wahahaha...im gonna lip sing payong, tagalog version of umbrella. which is ironic because that song infuriates me.

but what can i say. the director who is not really the director wants me to sing it.

walang ginagawa kami kundi magpractice. ang masaklap, laging di kumpleto so bulok pa rin kami hanggang ngaun. and what's worse is that act 1 to 4 has no connection with each other. i dont know how you can call it a play. but then, the scriptwriter is adamant. for some reason, he sees a connection between the 4 acts. let's just hope the judges also did.

i already cut polly dolly. one centimere from the linea alba. i saw her spaghetti-like organs. haha.

crap. zoo lab is getting more difficult. sobrang memorize ko yun mga muscles, pagdating sa practical, nalito ako sa mga prefixes, suffixes at vowels ng mga names. argh. 30 seconds lang kasi bawat palaka. sobrang time pressure.

now we need to memorize the stupid OIA (origin, insertion, action) of the muscles. ang dami!!!!!!!!!!! tapos nang-extra pa zoo lec. 8 chapters!!!!!!!! almost 200 pages!!!!!!!

well, well, well...

2008-09-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

well, it seems that i need my sister after all. wahaha. bati kami ngaun.

yesterday, september 12, friday, was the birthday of my popsie dearest. my sis and i decided to give him a gift since we gave our mother a gift. it wouldnt be fair if the other half of our chromosome producer didnt receive a gift from us. and so we both went to sm san lazaro last thursday.

we planned to buy red wine because a.) my father likes wine and b.) red wine is good for the health. but we were confused when we saw the different kinds of wine. we dont know what brand tastes good since...well, my sis and i are not drunkards. haha.

so we decided to buy a liter of welch grape juice instead. we chose the one with the antioxidant even when it is more expensive than the ordinary one. we also bought lays. the baked one which according to the nutritional value at the back is much healthier than the other lays. haha. we really want our father to be healthy. he's smokes and drinks kasi.

we received our frog this friday. i still dont know what to call it. my blockmates have names for their froggies already. my seatmate who's a guy named his Chelsea. another one dora. haha. i dont know what they were thinking. i'm thinking of naming my dear amphibian polly dolly. it's the name my sister wants kasi for my youngest sibling when he was still in our mother's womb. kasi yun mga babae nga sa amin initials ay P and D.

so if i name my frog polly dolly, it's like im saying that that frog--which im going to dissect--will be my little sis. um...

contrary to my earlier thoughts, i wasnt really afraid when i received my frog since it's already dead. it's quite smelly from the formalin but it just feels like rubber.

i asked for my sister's help in extracting the polly dolly's skin tonight. in fact, my sister did 95% of the job. haha. i really thanked her. nagawa na niya kasi yun nung nag-aral siya ng PT. my sister was a bit brutal with our youngest sister..pero okay lang..di naman natanggal yun muscles..haha

BITCHY SISTER

2008-09-10T18:23:00.003+08:00

OH HOW I HATE HER. I WANT TO MURDER HER. I WANT TO POISON HER. TO STUFFED HER INFURIATING FACE WITH A PILLOW. $%^&*

WHY AM I THE ONE ALWAYS WAITING? I HATE WAITING FOR HER. SIMPLY BECAUSE I ALWAYS WAIT FOR HER. EVERY WEEKDAY I WAIT FOR HER. EVEN IF HER CLASSES FINISHES EARLIER, I STILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR HER. WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? THE QUEEN? EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TWO 6:30 DISMISAL, I STILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR HER. WAIT FOR HER GOSSIP WITH HER FRIENDS. WAIT FOR HER DO STUPID STUFFS.

HER EXCUSE? SHE HATES WAITING SO SHE DOES SOMETHING TO PASS THE TIME. AND SO, I WOULD BE THE ONE WAITING FOR HER TO FINISH HER DO THE THING SHE DOES TO PASS THE TIME. WHAT A FREAKING ASS.

SHE DOESNT CARE ABOUT MY FEELINGS. WHEN I COMPLAIN TO HER ABOUT THIS, AKO PA ANG LUMALABAS NA MASAMA. I EVEN PITY OUR DRIVER. GUTOM NA, DI PA RIN MAKAUWI KASI KAKAHINTAY SA KANYA. MAY ULCER NA NGA DRIVER NAMIN EH. BUT SHE DOESNT CARE.

A WHILE AGO SHE COMPLAINED ABOUT THE FLOOD IN FRONT OF THE GATE IN DAPITAN SIDE SO SHE CANT COME OUT. WHAT AN ASS. PAANO KAYA AKO NAKALABAS? MAS MAAGA PA SIYA NA-DISMISS, PERO AKO PA RIN ANG NAGHINTAY ULI.

MASYADONG SENYORITA. KUMAKAIN SA KOTSE, DI BINABABA ANG GINAGAMIT NA PLATO. NAGBIHIS NG DAMIT. DI BINABABA ANG SARILING DAMIT. IBA PA ANG DAPAT GUMAWA.

NAGAGALIT SIYA PAG MAY PINAPABILI AKO SA NANAY KO. EH SIYA, NAGPAPABILI RIN. NAGPAPABILI NG PAGKAIN, DI NAMAN KINAKAIN.

BITCH.

fucking sister

2008-09-08T18:54:00.002+08:00

hay naku, nakakabwisit talaga ate ko. ang swapang niya!! kabagu-bago ng celphone, ang ganda-ganda ng camera, at ayaw niya ipahiram. actually, di ko na naman kailangan hiramin, may papapicture lang naman ako ng mga ilang tao sa kanya. mga katulang, yun driver, tsuva tsuva. basta, ang dali lang i-picture, tapos pasok lang sa computer. ganun lang kasimple, ayaw pa niya. basta, nae-epal talaga ako. kasi kung may kailangan siya, tinutulungan ko siya. eh ako ayaw niya tulungan.

tapos narinig ng tatay ko problema ko so kinausap niya ate ko. yun ate ko nabwisit at ni-lecture ako. ako pa raw ang may kasalana. sarap patayin!! di pa rin ako tinulungan.

grr..talaga....gusto ko talaga siya patayin ngaun. lagi na lang kami nag-aaway. halos everyday na. kung di naman, di nagpapansinan. bwisit talaga tong buhay na toh. kaunti na lang...tatanungin ko na si God kung bakit ko pa siya naging kapatid!

10 YEARS NA PALA WESTLIFE!! HAHA. PERO DI NA SILA GANUN KASIKAT NGAUN, EVER SINCE UMALIS SI BRIAN MCFADDEN

2008-09-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

3rd day of college week

2008-09-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

grabe, may reyes and reyes annual lecture seminar kanina. sabi 9:30 ang call time. nagsimula 11:00. grr...sobrang filipino time talaga rito. tapos sobrang boring ng lecture. for the first time, nakatulog ako habang may nagsasalita sa harap ko. half yata ng class namin nakatulog. masyadong nakakahiya sa speaker. sobra pa namang busy yun speaker na yon. he is a doctor na maraming mga letra sa likod ng pangalan. siya raw ang doctor ng mga Pilipino na pumunta sa beijing para sa olympics. ang sabi nga sa introduction sa kanya na in demand siya sa mga seminars na kagaya kanina. honestly, i dont know kung bakit siya in demand. yes, marami siyang alam, pero ang boring niya. mga joke niya walang tumatawa. haha. ang sama ng mga taga-ust.

after lunch, instead of going to the CRS exhibit, which again is required, we went to the guidance office. i took a personality test...and guess what? im stubborn!! haha. i already know that. kaya nga lagi ako pinapalo ng dad ko ng belt when i was young. im also independent daw. ows. haha, takot nga mag-commute eh. ako lang ang liberal sa mga friends ko, lahat sila conservative. pasaway rin daw ako sa mga rules...haha. i prefer to work alone rin--which is true. i am shy and reserve at first--which is also true, pero sira na pag naging close. sabi nga ng councilor na natatakot siya for me, kasi baka ma-worsen yun pasaway factor na meron ako...tawa lang ako...

sa bahay, may narinig akong music kanina. first time ko yun narinig and medyo patapos na siya, hula ko westlife kumanta. tiningnan ko sa internet, westlife nga!! haha. hindi ito yun first time na nakilala ko yun music style nila. grabe, ba't ayaw nila baguhin? feel ko kasi pare-pareho na tuloy yun mga tunog ng songs nila.

but you know, i still love them!!

haha..oh cge, im gonna hear and watch their music in youtube. i miss them already!!

continue...

2008-09-02T18:32:00.003+08:00

so anyway, kaya proud to be in rehab ang title ko sa previous post, yun kasi ang nakaprint sa college shirt namin. oh di ba, ang ganda. lahat kami mga baliw!!

so may amazing race today, tuesday. may 2 representatives bawat classroom. 2nd to the last kami!! kasi yun last, na-injured. wahahaha..

we also watched a film. title is "the wooden camera." okay lang siya. it's about gangsters and discrimination. but if you're a lit teacher, you'll say it's about love and friendship. it's only a matter of perspective, i guess. masaya yun film kasi libre popcorn and junkfood.

the next event is quiz bee. big yawn. most questions are about the lessons in PT, OT, and SpS. eh since subjects lang sa high school ang inaaral namin ngaun, wala kami maintindihan!! ang lalalim ng mga terms!!. parang tinatamad tuloy ako magpatuloy ng pag-aaral sa PT. haha

so ayan lang naman ang masayang buhay ko sa PT. thankful talaga ako na marami-rami na rin friends ko rito, para naman ma-ease ang boredom...haha

i saw another honey today!! rachel estella--commerce..haha...ang dami kong papakasalan sa simbahan ng ust!!

nakakatamad bukas..makikinig ng reyes and reyes lecture. sino ba mga yun? una kong naisip yun reyes haircutters.

PROUD TO BE IN REHAB

2008-09-01T20:32:00.002+08:00

wahaha...college week namin ngaun!! so walang aral and relax relax lang after prelims. happy..so happy happy...

kanina may mga booths...and dami kong libreng kotex (yun napkin)...haha...tsaka nagdarts din ako ng balloon..una palang, nakatama na....wahaha..kaya may libre akong block and white tawas.....haha

may inflatables din kanina..parang yun slide sa high fair...kaya lang doon walang bayad kaya slide all you want!! ang saya!! kasama ko nagslide si cupcake (abi bulusan)

oopss..gotta go..nang-epal sis ko...as usual!

why would the line "high heels, red dress" of the jonas brothers' song not leave my head?

2008-08-27T19:37:00.000+08:00

why would the line "high heels, red dress" of the jonas brothers' song not leave my head?

hay...

2008-08-27T18:49:00.002+08:00

hay naku, dapat nagreresearch ako ngayon ng biographies ng authors, kaya lang nakakatamad. ang haba kasi ng buhay nila eh, ang hirap tuloy malaman kung ano ang lalabas sa exam bukas. kasi naman, kung anu-ano pa ang pinanggagawa nila sa buhay nila. ba't di na lang sila nagsulat at namatay, para wala masyado kailangan i-memorize!

on the bright side, aside from world lit, math test bukas....hahaha...mayabang na ako!!

grabe zoo exam ngaun. mga 40 out of 95 items filling the chart. wala ako alam!! naguluhan kasi ako sa no. of chromosomes, chromatids, kinetochores, centromeres (ano ba yun?) ng mitosis at meiosis. hahahaha.....

abenir

2008-08-18T19:50:00.004+08:00

sorry, nagtotopak dsl...ayaw magupload ng picture...kaya click na lang para makita niyo si abenir....haha..

yang ding teacher na iyan ang nagalit sa group namin last week for the very 'sucking' per4mans. haha

pagpasensiyahan niyo na itsura niya..pati nga kami nagulat first time nakita namin siya that morning ng field trip...bigla kasi ang laki ng eye bags, tapos mukhang banggag pa..hahaha...mas may okay siyang mga pictures...kaya lang di ko alam multiply site ng iba kong blockmates...sa multiply ding niyan may makikita kayo mga pictures sa trip namin last 8/8/08. dapat walang pasok nga araw na iyon kasi feast day ni st. dominic. haha

: }

2008-08-18T17:57:00.003+08:00

hahaha..i think im addicted to pinball...haha...

oh, im sorry about yesterday..sometimes, you just get insane for no reason at all...hahaha

im fine now...sometimes...i just get too attach with my emotions that i fail to think with my mind...though, i still dont know why my emotions get crazy sometimes...

why are the speakers not working?

2008-08-17T18:22:00.001+08:00

%^&* %^&* *( 3$ !@#$ *% $%^&09 $%^&

.

2008-08-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

i dont know why. but i feel panicky. i dont really know...but something inside me feels that i should be doing something useful now. I DONT FREAKING UNDERSTAND MYSELF. crap. i think im stressed. right. i dont see why i should be stressed out. it's a long weekend.

inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale...

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!

oh right. fine. im just going to watch youtube videos. im going to catch up with the music scene.

imagine me dancing to the beat of the music...screaming like a groupie....shrieking like a banshee...my hair wild...my mind insane...my...okay...stop imagining me....

..

2008-08-17T18:05:00.002+08:00

all right...relax..this is easy...you're just going to connect what you saw with what you've learned. haha. sounds easy.

not really

especially if you didnt learned anything and you werent paying attention so you failed to see anything useful.

right. i think i should leave the net or i wouldnt accomplish anything other than posting stupid stuffs on my blog.

sucking ass

2008-08-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

why am i blog stalking? i should be doing my homeworks!!!!!!!!

im posting a lot this day to compensate for the past days which i failed to post thanks to the internet

2008-08-17T17:52:00.003+08:00

i just noticed that my recent posts are full of rantings. about the words sucking and asses. oh well, i guess that's what my pathetic life is made of: sucking asses.

pahabol

2008-08-17T17:50:00.001+08:00

oh yeah, the internet also sucks.

la vida chupa

2008-08-17T17:37:00.001+08:00

this week sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

our project performance sucks. how do i know? well, our teacher told us. he just said it in words synonymous with "suck." actually, he didnt say anything good about our group. our one hour standing in front of the class didnt make him happy at all. he noticed a LOTSSSSS of mistakes. and you know what's worse? the group before is probably the best group in all his classes. so our mistakes are really obvious.

well i cant blame him. we had a lot of errors. and guess what? i know whom to blame. well, not really. a part of me blames me because i wasnt more strict with my groupmates. what i just really hate is that i told them not to cram but they still did. so when problems started appearing, it's too late to fix them.

other bad things all happened this week...well what can i do...la vida chupa.

and it turns our i have a lot of long quizzes next week. i meant long because there are a lot of chapters to study in one subject only. i also have stupid homeworks. im only studying and doing those hw's now because i forgot about them. yeah, im old. i did nothing but read pocket books yesterday.

and i know the next week will also suck!!!!!!!!!!

whatever

new asses in my life

2008-08-10T18:55:00.003+08:00

i know im a crammer. what i didnt know until now is that the people here in ust, specifically my groupmates, are probably the worst crammers. tomorrow monday will be our presentation, but until now, they havent sent in their parts. i hate them!! i already told them last, last week of what they should do and they should already start that time. but did they listen to me? no! that's why i dont want to be the freaking leader. no, that's not it. i dont want group work! i rather do things individually. so even if i cram, i can do them the night before. not the morning we will pass it! grabe, asar talaga ako. tapos hanggang ngayon, wala pa kaming film na maiipresent. it's 15% of the total score. wala pa rin kaming naiisip na game. 30% yun. gosh. bloody people. so irresponsible!

and when they can see im obviously angry, they wonder why im mad? asses! and where are they now?? none of them are freaking online. bloody people. simple lang pinapagawa, di pa magawa.

lakbay aral

2008-08-09T12:37:00.005+08:00

when did field trips started to suck?

the whole college of rehabilitation sciences (consisting of PT, OT, and SpS) freshmen went to a field trip named Lakbay Aral yesterday. we went to:

barasoain church and casa real (both are in malolos, bulacan)--boring artifacts. i dont care about stupid furnitures and crosses and priests' clothes. and boring presentation about the history of the philippines' freedom. the only exciting event there is the wedding being held because the bride is obviously pregnant. haha. we're like wedding crashers because the others kept on taking pictures and the others didnt turn off the sound so you can here a lot of cameras clicking and see a lot of flashing
quezon memorial--this is where we find the remains of manuel quezon and his wife and some of their possessions and pictures--ang pogi ni manuel nung bata pa, in fairness. kaya lang his clothes look small. he doesnt look like a short guy. even his hospital bed is there. quezon memorial is a substitute because we were suppose to go in malacanang, but unfortunately, they're doing some repairs.
national museum and the museum near it. i dont know the name because our adviser left us for other sections. well, we cant blame him because the other sections kept on approaching him. the museums showed nothing but paintings and other arts. some are quite disturbing but then i guess that's art. some are boring. those are the abstracts, i dont see what other people see in them. it's like something anyone could do it. i saw the spolarium again, parang wala lang. haha.

do you know what the favorite artifact is? our very own adviser, sir abenir. a lot of girls (who are obviously kinikilig) took a lot of pictures with him. you would thing that he's someone famous when you see all those girls crowding around him and begging for pictures. kulang na lang, autograph. hahahaha. ako rin may picture na kami lang dalawa...hahaha pero kasi pinilit ako ng friend ko before pa nag-crowd ang ibang girls. kaya parang ako ang pinakauna. pero dont worry my honeys, wala akong crush sa kanya, ayaw ko kasi way niya ng pagsalita, parang gay... hehe

and now, we have to do reactions papers. one for socio and one for phil his. sucking. i didnt really learn anything. and the places and artifacts werent really that interesting.

ass

2008-08-07T09:31:00.003+08:00

as usual, i feel so stupid. i lost my eyeglasses. you know, the pink one where there are multiple x's displayed at the side. i lost it in school. it's gone. forever. and just this monday, i lost my umbrella. actually, it's my sis' umbrella. i havent told her. i dont really care. ugh, i hate my life.

how am i going to survive now? i have my contacts, but i am still more comfortable with my glasses. you can put it on and take it off whenever and wherever you like.

so yeah, when i got home yesterday, i felt depressed. sigh, i have such low coping mechanism. and so what i did is played pinball. pinball is good for depression. you just press two keys and watch the bouncing ball. your face remains expressionless. even the upbeat music on my radio didnt cheer me up.

then my stupid sister came. she demanded that she needs to use the computer. duh, i was here first. she got mad and the tattle tale called momsy to whine that she needs the computer to do her assignment and im just playing anyway. what an ass. can't she see that pinball is my way of coping with depression? plus the fact that im nearing the top score. oh no, she can't see it. well, i didnt tell her about the pinball-coping-with-depression, but can't she see the dejectedness on my face? she's so insensitive. she's not only an ass, she's a butt too!

i wish that when she was still an embryo, only her blastopore developed so she will come out of my mother only an ass. an anus. her archenteron and 3 germ layers should'nt have developed.

im mourning for my glasses.

After Great Pain a Formal Feeling Comes

Emily Dickinson

After great pain, a formal feeling comes--
The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs--
The stiff Heart questions was it He, that bore,
And Yesterday, or Centuries before?

The Feet, mechanical, go round--
Of Ground, or Air, or Ought
A Wooden way
Regardless grown,
A Quartz contentment, like a stone--

This is the Hour of Lead--
Remembered, if outlived,
As Freezing persons, recollect the Snow--
First--Chill--then Stupor--then the letting go--

i miss mr. roque. our lit teacher doesnt know how to teach.

embryology

2008-08-03T18:39:00.002+08:00

a long, long time ago, in a not so far away place (if you're near your mother), you look disgusting.
you look like any other animal. in fact, you can barely look at yourself. and yet this nauseating stage of your life is the most important. more important than marriage or squeezing out your first child.

and thanks to a stupid teacher (she has not yet-and maybe never will-reach the professor stage), i cannot appreciate this stage.

when you have cough and cold...

2008-07-27T16:02:00.004+08:00

the nearest thing you'll get in eating an orange is its juice being sprayed on your face because your brother still doesn't know good manners even after 21 years of existence
you can't eat the new chocolate cake being consumed rapidly in the ref
you can't drink chuckie
your younger brother making you salivate with the chocolates he's eating
your sister always complaining when you're in the same room with her
your mother constantly asking questions like do you still have your medicine, are you taking your medicine, why dont you want to go to a doctor, why wont you stop coughing, why are you not taking good care of yourself....
your father asks you want you want him to buy in the supermarket, and when you answered he would immediately ask your mother if you can have what you asked.
the cook making comments everytime you cough hard
you just want to go out the room in order to cough because your own beloved family is disgusted with you
you always need to drink water
you can't sing pussycat doll's newest song loudly
you always need to have tissue in your pocket
you sneeze a lot
your nose is red
your throat hurts
you feel like you're going deaf

in conclusion:

you hate yourself
your own family hate you

therefore:

you hate your life

so...

why dont i just commit suicide?

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okay, obviously, im also emotional.

wahahahahaha....

ugh

2008-07-23T19:12:00.002+08:00

great. im cursed when it comes to passing essays. last time, i forget to bring the theo essay so i had to skip class. now i forgot to pass the english essay. i brought it to school but forgot to pass it. im such a moron.

ugh. hirap ng lesson namin sa fil. glottal stop. aba, how should i know which words have a glottal stop. it's not like i can see my glottis.

ugh. i have cough. i have cold. i always sneeze. my throat hurts.

yes, dumating na ang yes! magazine...tsismisan na naman uli dito sa bahay..heehee

2008-07-22T10:32:00.004+08:00

ang eps talaga ng theo prof namin. pinamemorize ang mission ng ust, ang haba haba, tapos bonus lang pala sa exam. and you know what's really sucking, iba yun source niya sa amin. parang baliw. kinuha namin yun mission sa mga poster sa paligid gaya ng sa CR at sa harap ng dean's office at sa site ng UST...tapos mali raw yun. alam mo ba kung ano lang ang pagkaiba? ang arrangement ng 2 phrases. baliktad sa kanya. tapos kami pa raw mali. kaya ayun, walang nakakuha ng plus ten sa amin. kailangan pa naman namin yun. kailangan ko pa naman mabawi ang 7/20 na quiz ko.

hay naku, noong last friday dapat manonood kami ng batman, kaya lang naaliw ako at si atsi sa bookstore, lumampas tuloy kami sa time at kailangan na umuwi. hmph

happY 91st anniversary SShS!! sana stephenian ako for this day...

haloo

2008-07-20T18:21:00.002+08:00

waah...gusto ko na manood ng twilight the movie. hay, epal talaga dito sa pinas. imbes na december, gusto nila gawin sa january dahil sa mmff. hmf.

freshmen walk

2008-07-12T13:18:00.004+08:00

monthly exams next week...ang bilis ng panahon...

hay, i still cant seem to accept that im already in college...

we had the freshmen walk yesterday friday. all 30,000+ freshmen walked through what ust calls the arch of the centuries. the back form of arch is the exact one built when ust was still in intramuros. the front one is only a replica. when, i mean if, we graduate, we're going to pass through there again as a symbol of exiting the school.

i saw precious, justin, emmanuel ang and one of the ng twins. i dont know which one. haha.

precious looks the same. justin...um looks also the same. he did not see me. he was wearing glasses and the archi's red coat which is part of their uniform. ang dami palang archi sa ust. siguradong mahihirapan sila maghanap ng trabaho pagkagraduate kasi ang daming competition. sabi ng friend ko na puro drawing daw ang ginagawa nila.

i already saw emmanuel ang thrice in ust already. first was in enrollment. sa sports science siya which is part of our college. the college of rehabilitation sciences.

nakita ko na rin sina kate, lea, jowell, sydney, janell, isaac, abigail ang and bulusan, gwyneth, arvin, sheriza, sabrina, erika, natasha? i dont really remember. haha. sobrang bilis kasi eh. may iba pa...4get ko lang. haha. sama ko talaga. sorry to the people i missed.

di ko pa nakikita si patricia...dont know why...

so yesterday, after the freshmen walk, mass was held in the grandstand (it's a big field with a stage at the end). umulan pa nga. buti drizzle lang. natuloy tuloy yun mass. haha. i dont know what time the mass finish because i already left at 6:30. i didnt stay na even when there's a concert. rivermaya and some pinoy bands. im not a big fan naman kasi. sana lifehouse na lang. haha. asa pa ako.

ang dami na sa classmates ko nag-aaral for next week at this minute. pag makikita mo yun text nila, puro dont disturb me...am studying. parang gusto ko na rin tuloy mag-aral kasi baka mahuli ako. pero may sunday pa naman kasi. haha. first year pa lang naman ako eh, relax muna para di ako mabaliw.

the 3rd year PT students are telling us stories about the cadavers. the first part daw is the face. they take of the skin....eww...wawa naman. haha. eh yun palaka nga parang di ko na kaya i-slice ang tummy. it's like im going to feel the frog's pain. and what's worse is that you know that YOU are the one who's going to murder the innocent mr. or ms. froggy. sigh. i wish to turn back time and go back to kindergarden.

458i9..9..698..478...087

2008-07-09T20:55:00.003+08:00

blah. something very bad happened to me earlier this week. it is not actually an event, it is more like an internal struggle. but since the stupid dsl is not working, i cannot vent that time in my blog. i used the ms word as my venting machine instead. blah. i dont want to copy and paste it now. baka matakot pa kayo kung paano talaga ako mag-isip. hehe.

:{ bagsak uli ako practical test sa zoo lec. im starting to hate microscopes. kaunti na lang, i will start cursing robert hooke and anton van leeuwenhoek, the inventors of compound and simple microscopes respectively.

i have a quiz in filipino tomorrow. 32 pages in the book. plus the papers she gave us in which the laws about the filipino language is printed. blah. ang daming numero!! kautusang tagapagganap 304 or something like that. grabe, ang dami talaga. stupid saligang batas. si marcos walang magawa sa buhay gawa lang ng gawa ng batas. nang-extra pa si cory, magsaysay at ramos. yun iba, dep ed head lang, gumawa rin. mga sira....wahahahaha....mababaliw ako ...4567...78...198...4567..9...54...954...46...12...45...9...09854.....345.....2.5.577.

may dates pa pala!!

im so dead.

may assignment pa sa socio. kakatapos ko lang ngayon. kaya di ko pa nauumpisahan ang pag-aral sa fil.

grr...porke ba monthly exams na next week lahat ng teachers namamadali...pareho lang sila sa estudyante, mahilig magcram. yun lang nga, tayo kawawa. = {

^_^

2008-06-30T19:19:00.003+08:00

tuloy tuloy tests namin!!

theo-divided into 2 quizzes. first quiz...elck! so hard. and im not exaggerating. the 2nd quiz....i think i did not follow the directions. -_-

english...if clause statements...parang elem..medyo naguluhan...medyo lang naman..^_^

absent math prof!!! yehey!!! 2 hours lunch!!!...dinala niya anak niya sa ospital..oops!!

zoo lec...60 items!! 40 minutes!! buti na lang multiple guessing...papasa kaya ako? 50-50

hay....nakakatamad pumasok bukas...world lit namin 3 "short" stories kailangan i-read. hmf!

ang mamahal ng books sa ust!! mas maliit pa sa ntb...P200. kaunti lang yun nilaki-P295. yun zoo book pag sa national, P999. may mga manuals and tsuvah pa!! ubos na allowance ko!!

kaya kaninang lunch...cheesburger lang food ko. hungry pa tuloy ako. sniff. sniff.

pigs

2008-06-29T17:23:00.003+08:00

i hate this house!! or rather, i hate the people living in here!!!!

they're all a couple of gluttonssss.

laging agawan sa pagkain dito. parang mga patay gutom!!

ang di lang pinag-aagawan ay ang mga di masarap. at pag di masarap...it will just rot in this household.

mais lang, ayaw pa ako tirahan. dapat talaga mauna ka sa pagkain kundi mauubusan ka.

di lang sa pagkain, pati na rin sa inumin. mga juice, chocolate milk, soy milk and mga tsuvah agawan din.

walang hiya tong bahay na toh!! kaya wala laging pagkain in the middle of meals. wala laging snacks. kasi pagbumili, ubos kaagad.

minsan kanya-kanya na lang kami...kaya lang...may magnanakaw...bigla mo na lang mapapansin may kumain na ng share mo!! masking kahit anong tago mo.

mga baboy!!!

there, it's nice to vent.

hahaha

2008-06-28T12:19:00.003+08:00

grabe, rami pala GC sa amin. as in grade conscious.

daming umiyak after our practical test in the lab. our topic was focusing. we should be able to focus a strand of our hair under the LPO and HPO. one minute each.

actually, most of us marunong naman. including me. nagagawa ko siya. kaya lang, sobrang time pressure that time. and i BLAME THE LIGHTS. sa dulo kasi ako, hirap hanapin ang ilaw. haha. kaya ayun, 0/20 ako. etlog. haha. kasi by the time i found the light, one minute is over. naguguluhan pa ako kung ano ang concave at ano ang convex.

on the BRIGHT side, i got closer to a classmate. pareho lang kasi kami na hanggang ilaw lang ang nakita. so we talked and laughed about it. we reasoned that what is the essence of finding a piece of hair strand when it has no meaning. but for the minority of us, we found the LIGHT!! very meaningful, di ba?

yehey. hay, baliw talaga ako. di ko nga alam ba't di ako nalungkot. mahirap din kasi yun bawiin. lalo na na may written test din on the same day before the practical test took place. i dont know where the prof got her questions. i hate identification! tapos may problem solvings pa-finding the actual size of the specimen. nalito pa ako sa una kung paano iconvert ang milli sa nano. haha. parang walang natutunan sa high school.

test ko sa phil his....pasang-awa. lagi naman akong pasang-awa eh. paano naman kasi, di ko alam mga regions dito sa pinas. malay ko ba kung saan yun basilan. may inilabas din kalantiaw code. um, what's that??? stupid william henry scott. may urduja pa. aba, malay ko ba. i didnt watch the movie noh. haha.

masaya lang sa math. hehe. algebra expressions lang kasi. problema lang kung careless ka. pero yun mga mali ko sa test puro concerning definitions. haha. i forgot na kasi what's the difference with rational and irrational. what are real numbers? mga ganun tsuva.

well, ganun talaga buhay. uy, paraang umookay yun coping mechanism ko rito sa college ah. hehe. diniscuss kasi sa socio yun coping mechanism ng isang tao. ikwinento ng prof namin na as PT students, dapat mataas yun coping mechanism namin. dapat may SIGNIFICANT OTHER kami na pwede i-vent ang mga problems with, or else we might end up like the past UST students who committed suicide.

one guy shot himself in the head because of family and grade problems. he should be in 5th year right now. another girl jumped from the top floor of the commerce building because of her grades. nakita raw ng prof namin na yun ulo ng girl pumasok sa neck niya. kasi sa ulo raw yun impact. hay, yun commerce building pa naman ang katabi ng building namin, the med building. and there's this guy who broke up with his girlfriend. he also jumped from the commerce building. pero ang hulog niya sa legs so nabuhay siya. kaya lang, the car he landed on was damged. he had to pay for it. and he had to transfer school because of shame.

well, since nagkahiwalay-hiwalay na tayo, wala na akong significant otherssss. i dont talk much to my honeys here in UST. iba kasi courses and sometimes building namin so laging hanggang hi lang. this just tells me that i need to find new honeys quickly. i need someone to vent my problems with. pero for now, this blog would do. so if i kept on posting bad things in my blog, you'll know that i still dont have any significant other to vent to. :)

the happenings

2008-06-21T15:21:00.004+08:00

our theo prof looks mean. she's very demanding. daming pinapabili...ang epsi niya. haha. she gave us an assignment about thinking of an "anagram" for our names. and then explain in essay form. grabe, ang tagal ko mag-isip. palibhasa, di ko kilala sarili ko.

and you know what's really annoying? i left my assignment at home!! i remembered that i left it when we were already in NLEX. even though my class is still at 10, the car can't go back because the marmoset would be late. so i kept my mouth shut. if i tell my mother my predicament, she would surely lecture me. she would nag me for many days and i dont want that. everytime she gets angry and lecture us, she looks like she's going to have a heart attack, so we dont want to tell her any bad news.

so what i did is go to school at 11. after the theo subject. is that considered cutting class? haha. i went up the 6th floor at 11 to see that our theo prof is not yet finish lecturing. i met a classmate outside the hallway who's also late. like me, he doesnt want to go to class. so i waited in the comfort room for 10 minutes. and when i came out, she's still there!!

i saw our adviser, prof abenir, walking in the hallway, so i quickly looked at the bulletin boards on the hallways. i dont want him to recognize me and ask what im doing outside the classroom. and then i saw our english prof, her subject is after theo. not wanting her to see me too, i hid behind a post. i felt like a spy. haha.

finally the theo prof came out, i quickly looked at the left side of the hallway's wall and my classmate looked at the right side. we actually looked funny that time. the prof just passed us without any recognition. i hope.

now, im dead. how would i explain my absence? i really have no regrets since it turns out our theo prof also asked my classmates to passed the stuffs she mentioned in the last meeting that we have to buy. and well, i dont have those stuffs so i guess im safe again just for not being there. haha.

our math prof called me to answer on the board for a one time graded recitation. i did not read her lectures (i also forgot to bring them that day) and i already forgot how to do synthetic division. so...poor little me....i really suck in math....i cant believe i forgot synthetic division...such a moron. haha.

our sociology test consisted of a ten item identification type and 5 essays. crap. i dont know german so i wasnt able to answer the question what is the german term for sociological imagination. it happens to be versehen. at least i know the father of sociology. auguste comte. i had a hard time answering the bloody essays...tsk tsk...

it's official. i flunked zoo lec. and the test in zoo lab about microscope...i got a tres. passang awa. haha. nakakainis nga. yun revolting nosepiece, ginawa kong nosepiece revolver...pareho pa rin naman yun di ba? minali niya. haha.

nakakita na rin ako ng paramecium!! haha. ang cu-cute nila!!

nakita ko yun hair ko under the microscope...parang twig!! it looks so brown. di mukhang healthy. haha

saya talaga ng phil hist. game kami ala jeopardy. yun nga lang kulelat group namin. haha. graded game pa naman yun. haha. pero enjoy naman siya.

pansin ko lang ang baba ng grades ko compare sa others...pero kasi naman, mga kaklase ko..valedictorian at mga salutatorian. may isa nga, tatanga-tanga, highest pala sa test. haha.

world lit teacher namin parang walang buhay. ang white niya kasi tapos ang hair niya super straight. ang payat pa. kinda like ms. yao. tapos kung magsalita siya walang buhay. hay.
nagbasa kami ng poem "the introduction" by kamala das. guess what it's about? womanhood. remember ko tuloy si mr. roque. marami rin siyang about womanhood. haha. next story namin about a girl who loves to feel pain. parang baliw nga eh. she's willing to break most of her bones for the sake of beauty. eh, maganda naman na siya eh. may rich boyfriend pa. yun nga lang, may asawa na. haha. kabit lang siya. anyway, she went to brazil to have her bones broken. since she cant take lots of pain killers because she might get addicted to it and experience withdrawal after, she had to settle with enduring and living with the intense pain for many months. in the end, after all the surgeries were done and she has become very very beautiful, she learned to yearn for the pain. in order to feel pain again, she left the boyfriend whom she loved very much. so stupid. kawawang bf, siya pa naman nagfund ng surgeries ng girl. haha. magastos talaga ang mga kabit!

good stuff sandwich the bad stuff

2008-06-16T19:44:00.003+08:00

our maid saw my contacts in the comfort room's floor!! after all these days...and the whole family already took baths there. it's good it didnt fall down the drain. it's so dirty!! but it didnt stop me from putting it on my eye!! of course i cleaned it first. im not that stupid.

but im still stupid!!

i flunked the first ever test in my college life!! the subject's zoo. the only freaking major!! and i think it's the easiest test. the test was: "Give 4 properties of life." i know what you're thinking.

that's actually easy. living things grow, reproduce, move, tsuva tsuva...

well, that's what i wrote....since i didnt read the book....since i dont have a book....since the person whom im suppose to buy from is incommunicado!! am i making sense??

so i have no book. so i didnt study. so i failed. i freaking didnt know that she was looking for the answers from the book!! chemical uniqueness, hierarchy tsuva tsuva...geez...how was i suppose to know those stuffs!! oh yeah, i should have read the book!!!

tapos sabi niya after saying the question, "you have one minute." and after 5 seconds of saying that sentence, she announced "PASSED!" geez!!!!

sorry. im using a lot of exclamation points.

our math teacher is a racist.

our english teacher is boring. she loves to talk.

our zoo prof....im not being bias or anything after flunking her test...but di siya magaling magturo. palipat-lipat siya ng topics. ang illegible pa ng handwriting.

our theo prof is absent for the second time. we still dont know what she looked like!!

our phil his teacher is actually good. di siya boring and he knows how to explain. our assignment in this subject for the next meeting is find out the story of maragtas and princess urduja. research why it is false. may game raw kami next meeting. yehey!!

parang gusto ko tuloy manuod ng movie na urduja. kaya lang ayaw ko si regine eh. haha.

so those things are for this day. nothing really exciting. haha.

ignore the title.

first week!

2008-06-15T17:58:00.003+08:00

i really hate our uniform. it's so....white!!
every time i go home and change, i always see a dirt or stain on my uniform. and the white buttons are easily removed. i havent worn the blouse and one button dropped out already.

hay!

we already have assignments. what is the connection of PT with sociology and anthropology? whatevah.

we also have to do an essay about literature. geez, memories of duron suddenly come flashing back!

filipino: mga teorya uli!! ano ba ang katangian ng wika?? eh ano nga ba ang wika? kasaysayan ng wika? tungkulin ng wika sa tao? ano ba yan, puro na lang wika!!

we're suppose to read chapter 1-3 of our zoo book. problem is, i havent bought the zoo book!! im so dead. and the prof kept on reminding us that she LOVES to give surprise quizzes.

math??? wala pa akong lectures unlike the others. paano naman kasi, ngayong sunday pa lang meron. no way im going to school on a sunday just to get stupid lectures. basic algebra lang naman daw. lang daw oh. parang ang galing ko sa math!! haha

grabe, feeling ko ang close na ng class namin. laging magkasama. bago pumunta sa isang place, laging nagme-meeting muna buong class. ang dami na nagtext sa akin!! yun iba di ko maalala yun mukha!! naku, baka ma-deadma ko sila bukas dahil di ko mamukahan. okay lang, smile na lang ako sa lahat ng tao. feel ko kasi lahat sila same itsura.

dami ding nag-add sa akin sa ym. although im not familiar with their names, cge, bahala na.

PE na bukas!! di ko sure kung saan!! hindi raw kasi sa gym eh. kundi sa labas. open air daw!! ano ba yan!! iitim ako!! haha

grabe, orientation kahapon ng mga PT. tinatakot na kami. sobrang hirap daw. lahat sila yun ang sabi. yun mga PT, okay lang daw mag-med, kasi sanay na sa stress. What?? ayaw ko ng stress!!

natatawa ako sa mga nakasama ko sa tour. pogi kasi SC president namin. haha. ang talino pa, laging nasa DL. sa pinakatuktok ng DL. nakasama namin siya sa lunch kasi buong tour group kami kumain. grabe, haha. turned off mga freshmen girls ng tour group namin nung nakitang naninigarilyo si presidente. tapos habang papalagad kami pabalik sa UST, ang daming mga stops. kasi kinausap pa ni mr. president mga girls na nasalubong namin. haha. muntik na kaming masagasaan kasi nakatigil kami sa gitna ng kalye. haha.

nahulog yun right contacts ko sa cr!! di ko na makita. huhuhu. galit na galit madir ko!! i cant blame her. di pa kasi one month since she bought it for me.

first day!!

2008-06-11T18:43:00.003+08:00

i must admit, first day is not bad. actually, im happy with it. our class is noisy and there are a lot of friendly people. i already have 3 new friends-2 girls and a guy, pero madami-dami na rin yun kilala ko.

our adviser's name is marc anthony abenir and he teaches phil history. he's very energetic so i dont think that i would get bored. well, dapat lang kasi math and zoo ang subjects before him. he actually reminds me of sir reyes. haha. there's something in the way he speaks that makes me think that he's gay, but other than that, he seems like a straight guy. but then, he's catholic. we prayed before and after his class. im really bad to think he's gay. haha. but in fairness, may itsura siya ah. haha

ang hilig mag-recite ng class (1PTB) namin. 42 kami sa class today. dami noh. tapos 3 sections. nagintroduce kami during phil history and i found out na marami sa amin marunong mag-play ng musical instruments. may 3 mahilig sa photography at martial arts each. may isa mahilig sa mga trivia. grabe, i feel insignificant tuloy. buti na lang may isang lalaki na ang talent and hobby ay dota. haha.

yun mga prof sa ust, puro late. haha. well, i guess you can forgive them kasi nasa 6th floor kami. ang init init pa! grabe talaga kanina. i was sweating so hard and all my pimples were so red and obvious because of the heat.

during zoo, i found out na marami sa amin ang matatalino. naalala pa nila yun inaral sa high school. mitosis and meiosis. haha. may isa ngang guy nagbigay ng detailed explanation complete with examples. habang nagre-recite nga siya impress na impress ako kasi di ko alam ang mga pinagsasabi niya. ang dami nga sa nag-recite ang articulate magsalita. ang dami nilang alam and they know how to speak them in straight english. ako wala, nakaupo lang dun sa likod. haha.

ang hirap during lunch. may car park nga kami na puno ng restaurants eh puno rin naman ng estudyante. so lumabas pa kami ng new friends ko sa dapitan. puno ang mga fastfoods at ibang restaurants so sa 7 11 na lang kami bumili ng sandwich at patayo kumain. haha. more than 30 minutes kami sa ilalim ng init ng araw na naghahanap ng makakainan, feeling ko tuloy umitim ako. haha.

4 o'clock is our zoo lab kaya lang di namin alam kung saan yun so naligaw kami. nagkalat yun buong class sa buong building. puti yun uniform namin so para kaming lost sheep doon. sa huli, naging 6 na lang ang grupo na kasama ko and di na namin alam kung saan yun iba. di ko nga alam kung bakit walang nag-ask ng help kung saan yun lab. wala rin yata pumunta sa dean gaya ng suggestion ng adviser namin. sa huli, umuwi na lang kami.

gutom na gutom ako paglabas ng ust kasi sandwich lang lunch ko, bumili tuloy ako ng cake sa goldilocks. haha. pag-uwi ko nakita ko na ang daming dumi ng likod ng uniform ko. hay naku, di kasi nililinis yun upuan. haha.

the dastard

2008-06-04T14:22:00.004+08:00

school starts on wednesday, the 11. actually, it's on the 10th, but since im not catholic and have no wish to attend mass, im attending on wednesday.

frankly, im not that depressed anymore. im just...scared. i think that most of us is dreading this "new chapter of our lives," but what can we do but go on. because in the back of our minds, we're aware that if we do not pursue this "next chapter", we will regret it in the future.

and what is the future? nothing but bleakness. we can only hope what faces us there, but we can never really be too sure.

im trying to remember all the inspirational message the guidance and counseling center kept on feeding us...and i cant remember anything...well, except that life is all about the journey or something like that.

the question is: are we enjoying the journey?

me? i dont know. because just thinking about my journey from the med building to the gym is frightening for me already.

im afraid to get lost. if i end up the wrong way, literally and figuratively, i wouldn't know what to do. yes, i know God is there. But i'll be honest. my spiritual life--it's kinda sinking. i believe in Him. i just dont ask Him for directions. Yeah, a silly thing to do for someone who doesn't know where to go.

as usual, the conclusion is: im an idiot.
on the bright side, im smart enough to be aware of my idiocy.

whatevah

2008-06-01T15:24:00.003+08:00

okay, so i got my contacts. 10 mm in diameters so it was easy to put on. i use it every time i watch grey's anatomy. i already finished season 1 to season. it's actually nice. i now understand why other people love it so much. my sister in particular, is addicted to it. she kept on watching it even after finishing all the 3 seasons. she kept on repeating the scenes that she like. no wonder the cd is starting to get broken.

geez, im starting to freak out. first day of college is getting nearer. it's june already!! i havent buy school materials yet..........................aaaaaaaaaaaarggggggghh

the yacht experience

2008-05-25T19:42:00.003+08:00

for the first time in my 18 yrs of existence, i was fortunate enough to have the rare opportunity of going inside a yacht. yes, a yacht!!! actually, sabit lang kami ng pamilya ko, but still. my aunt invited my father to join her in her friend's yacht to watch the fireworks show last night. my father invited my sister since she seems to be bored doing nothing in this house. my sister invited the marmoset and me. and since the marmoset is coming, my mother decided to come so she'll be sure nothing will happen to our hyperactive brother. not wanting to be left alone, my big brother then decided to tagged along. in conclusion, the whole family!!!

so we went to manila bay yesterday. we reached there at about 5 pm. our aunt vicky actually had to fetch us from the door to the docking area because we dont know where the yacht is. i think she was surprised when she saw all of us. it's a little embarrassing; she didn't bring her family but she brought her brother's whole family to her friend's yacht.

as we walked to the yacht, we could smell the ocean which my sister and i could only describe as fishy. the marmoset was back to his monkey ways and refused to walk in a straight line. my mother was frightened that he might fall in the water.

the yacht is big. bigger than the other yachts in there. even bigger than the ones i see in the movies. i didnt get the name of the yacht but that's alright; it might just break the awing illusion of the place. i saw the other names of the boats, and i find them really ugly and not fitting for such expensive vessels.

i dont know quite how to describe the yacht. the place is furnished well. there's a long living room on the main deck filled with a big flat screen tv. there were long sofas and square-shaped pillows filled them. the burnished pieces of furniture looks expensive...well, no surprise there since the couple who owns the boat are rich..rich enough to buy a yacht worth millionssss of pesos.

the bedrooms are in the lower deck. i counted for bedrooms, one of which is the masters. there is one comfort room complete with a sink, a toilet bowl and a shower stall. the three smaller rooms contain a double deck bed and a table each. i didnt see the masters well only that there's a queen-size bed. yeah, i know really big. the reason i was able to see the whole room is because some bald guy was in there. okay, not some bald guy; it's the owner. oops! good thing the only one he saw is my curious father who was ahead of me. haha.

the upper deck is where the captain of the ship is. but since it's a yacht, should i say the driver? it wasnt until seven that i was able to get inside the "driver's room." before that we where just hanging in the upper deck drinking softdrink. feeling the cool wind on our faces and the gentle swaying of the boat. good thing i'm not seasick. before dinner, we stuffed ourselves with the junkfood provided. the time flew fast until it was time for the fireworks display.

the fireworks display was amazing. i thought it will be boring but i was wrong. instead of showing the usual fireworks "style," they showed unique creations. well, unique for me since i rarely see a firework display.

the food was delicious--kare-kare, sinigang, and some vegetables--except for the grilled fish.

oops, gotta go now...my sis needs to use the computer...

insanity runs in the family

2008-05-22T13:25:00.005+08:00

we (momsy, my sis and i) went to see ophthalmologists yesterday. momsy, as usual, was worried about me looking old-fashioned in my new college. she noticed during the enrollment that i was the only one wearing glasses. she mentioned something about me not looking so good. ouch there, considering it came from my own mother. what happened to beauty is in the eyes of the beholder?

it's the reason why i got my hair cut and took the relax treatment. though it didn't make any difference. my hair is still wavy and curling in the wrong directions.

the reason we went to see eye doctors is because my mother wants me to start wearing contacts. though a part of her is scared that i might lose or destroy it. I'm known in our household for losing things and destroying them, albeit accidentally.

momsy, a meticulous one, went to see two eye doctors so she can buy the best, and of course the cheapest. i learned that the standard size for contacts is 14 mm in diameter. doctor A told us that we wont find anything smaller than the pupil. i was confused since i thought that the pupil is the small black dot in the center of the eye. but then, how could contacts be smaller than the dots in the eyes? so maybe, iris is the small dot in the eye. but i remembered something in elem about iris is the one who holds the color of the eye. and thus, i was confused. i don't know which is the pupil and which is the iris. well, no surprise there since i've always been stupid.

we than went to see doctor B. doctor B said that the least size a contact can have is 13.5. anything smaller than that is impossible. i don't know why but we went across the street to see doctor A again. she said that she called someone and that someone told her that there is a size 10. i was confused again. how could there be a size 10 when doctor B said that it is impossible to have less than 13.5. and so my mother's decision was...we'll think about it.

but it wasnt really a waste of time because doctor B taught me how to put on contacts. i really admire her for being a patient lady. im not a fast learner so it took a lot of time. actually, i felt that she wanted to scream at me a lot of times. when we finally finished, both of my eyes are really red and i feel that there is someone hammering hard inside my head.

the only good thing about the day is the time we went to eat dinner. the restaurant's menu is consisted mostly of noodles. i ate two bowls of beef lamien noodles. yum, but in the end, my stomach was groaning and i cant walk to the car properly. i was tempted to raise my shirt and expose my stomach for the world to see. it's not an unusual image since i already saw it in a lot of men in the streets who are proud enough to expose their big stomachs in a very public place.
but then, i dont want my parents to reprimand me for the embarrassing behavior, so i kept my shirt tuck in. im such a good daughter.

my sister and i talked about babies in the car. i don't know how the subject came up, maybe because of my big stomach. i also don't know what came into my sister's head but she suddenly exclaimed that she wanted to have a thousand peso bet with me. the first one who got pregnant in between of us should pay the other 1 k. but if the one who got pregnant lives in the squatters area, she doesnt have to pay. it seems that i am not the only one insane in the family.

i'm sorry that the title only pertains to the 2nd to last paragraph. my mother is not insane, she just doesn't care if we cross the street and come back and do it again so she can compare and contrast the two doctors opinions.

life is scary

2008-05-19T20:36:00.003+08:00

ah...such memorable day...the day, the first time i stepped into the coffee-scented store named starbucks.

did you know that the name starbucks was gotten after the character in moby dick? though i dont know why.

im already satisfied stepping on its floor. i dont need to waste money buying their expensive drinks and sweets. maybe next time.

you probably know from krizia that we went to gateway. my first time too. we rode the lrt 2. another first. geez, i know nothing in life.

my mother and i commuted home using the bus. it's a wonderful feeling. no, it's not my first time. but i still love the feeling of the sun and the cool wind on my face...i actually wish we could stay like that forever...for june and college not to come, even if there are black ants crawling on our seats, thanks to the pineapple my mother bought.

but life must go on. and here i am now, typing on this computer. it's night,, many hours after the happy bus ride...and the clock will continue ticking...and next thing you know, it's time for school..

aaaagghh....

i give my sympathy to the lasallians.

sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. and now, we're going down. charlene is going up. she's finally going to experience summer. have fun, char!

you know what the conversation in the mall and the ride home mostly about? college and the future. well, of course!! what should i expect? the signs are everywhere...and life must go on...

but im thankful...becuase there can be a lot worse situations i can be..like being in africa and your parents having aids...like you're still 10, but already working because you have drunkards for parents...like you're a baby but will soon face death because of an illness and can never experience happy moments...like...like...whatevah...you get my point..

hmm..i wonder where i got this new optimism...probably because i know im luckier than elysia right this minute...hope her head doesnt explode..but im sure she'll manage...despite being a crammer, she always survives.

2008-05-18T20:44:00.003+08:00

my ex-ipod was broken because i put it in my pocket and sat down. bumiyak ang lcd. just found out now. may she rest in peace. im not gonna bother her na. she'll just have to make friends with the mr. dust0 ang ms. dirta.

my summer is going on very well. im drowning myself with food, books and tv.

i just finished prison break season 1 to 3. parang ayaw ko na nga kasi di matapos tapos yun problema nila.

i dont want finish heroes. ang daming characters kaya and slow-paced. naging boring tuloy siya for me.

i finished house season 1 na. di ko na magawang matapos yun season 2. nahihilo ako. makikita ko tapos na yun episode di ko pa rin alam kung ano ang naging sakit ng pasyente.

nag-aantay pa ako ng fresh new episodes ng gossip girl.

im now watching grey's anatomy. just starting so i cant really give my opinion.

yesterday, nag-dvd marathon ako. i watched the italian job, ocean's 11, 12 and 13 again. parang ang sarap tuloy magnakaw. di mo na kailangan magkolehiyo. sobrang yaman mo pa.

grr..

2008-05-15T12:09:00.005+08:00

waahh....bye bye ipod nano...my pink ipod nano...i never even felt that you were mine. after putting only 5 songs inside you, you have gone crazy, and thus i have to let you go. bye bye P12, 500, plus the silicon case, plus the ipod charger..it's such a big waste of money...i just want to tear all my hair out!

my father bought my ipod in mcintel, because he's after the warranty. but the stupid ipod obviously has wrong timing. it has gone crazy only after 2 months out of the warranty period. if we're going to fix it, we have to fix everything, even though only one unit has the defect. it's the company's stupid rules. the changing of all the units will cause 8 thou. and that ipod nano is only sold for P7, 500 currently. you take your pick. %^&*#

the ipod can still be use. you can still put songs and listen to it. the only problem is the screen. you cant see anything but the stupid lines. so it's kinda like ipod shuffle now. but you know, i quit. i never knew how to work the stupid thing anyway. i dont know how to put songs inside. yes, i know. im dumb. DUMB.

i hate technology. i hate life.

how the heck will i survive the future?

elysia, you're the one responsible with the pills. FIND SOME NOW!!.

nonsense

2008-05-05T16:51:00.003+08:00

hmf.

it's good my sister found something she could read, so i can use the computer now. if you're wondering why i don't post consistently, it's because of her!!

she's always playing games in the computer. she doesn't want me to use.

hmf.

nakakagamit lang ako kung wala siya...sniff..

waaahhh...inaapi ako dito...

di...nag-iinarte lang ako

pasensya na po.

teka lang, ba't ko ba kayo pinopopo?

hay naku...manonood na lang ako ng prison break. sa season 2 na ako...

uy, totoo ba na bading si wentworth miller a.k.a. michael scofield? sayang, may doll pa naman ako na lalaki na ipinangalan kong michael yun maliit pa ako. kung bading si wentworth miller, iisipin ko na bading din yun doll ko.

teka lang...miller?? parang familiar ah....

some words may not be suitable to CHILDREN, parental guidance is advise

2008-05-04T15:44:00.004+08:00

i was starting to get bored again after finishing the buffy the vampire slayer books we have in the house so my sister suggested to me what daryl, my older bro, suggested to her--read the books he bought. now this would seem normal if you have a normal brother, but you see, my brother is not normal. aside from being a genius, he's also a pervert.

dont worry, he's not harassing us, he just has this curious fascination with sex and anything conneted with it. some of you have probably heard me tell the story of his disturbing questions.

for pete's sake, he's our older brother, he should protect us from these disturbing things, but instead he asks us questions about them.

questions like..."have you ever had sex?" "have you experience orgasms or tried to experience it?" "what makes you attracted to a guy?" "is tom cruise handsome? or do you prefer brad pitt?" "what do you think of dingdong dantes' giant underwear bill board?" and this made me think of you guys, my friends--"have your friends experience sex?"

ugh...seriously...the guy is a nutcase.

well yes, granted, all these questions are part of a project he's doing that time...but to ask his little sisters? not that im little, but im still younger than he is.

he asked these questions in march, but that's not quite the end of it. during the first few weeks of our (stephenians) vacation, he (my brother) drag the whole family with the exception of my father to robinsons. actually, i've only been there once or twice before, the family usually goes to SM. the reason he drag us there because it's the only mall he knows that has a sex shop.

so when he found the store, he went inside and started taking pictures while the rest of us stayed outside at a reasonable distance, embarrassed. but when he was taking so long, my sister followed him. and a little while longer, i too, went inside.

that day was at least a month from now already, so i dont quite remember what i saw. i remembered seeing a lot of things i dont understand though. haha. there were also figurines about two people doing 'it.' there were some seemingly harmless stuff like..well i forgot what's it called. you know, the pin, the one the stephenian math society gave math members. the one with there's power in numbers written on it. but in that store, that's not what it says. some phrases i dont understand, some quite normal and unoffending and some quite salacious. haha.

anyway, we all finally went outside the store and the we saw there were posters on the glass windows. there was a naked picture of a fat lady, a nude baby smiling wickedly and a poster about different kinds of condoms for different people. my brother was quite delighted with these and started taking pictures again.

we then went down the elevator and saw a Bench store. the mannequins displayed on the window were wearing underwear so it wasnt quite surprising that my brother went inside. in order not to waste time, the rest of us look around. the marmoset was laughing hard at the things he saw. i guess he's not used to seeing female underwear. but its embarrassing with the saleswomen and other custormers.

my mother saw a bra she wanted and bought it. but before that, my brother asked her to pose with it for a picture. my mother was horrified. she doesnt want her face in my brother's project which is a collage. so my brother cajoled and pleaded with us, his siblings, to do the dirty deed. after a lot of laughing and shouting, i was chosen to be the model. i dont really remember how that happened or how i was fooled into doing it. i was also asked to posed beside the half-naked mannequins. on the bright side, my posing doesnt include wearing the bra, just holding it.

we then went to watson where he bought some frenzy condoms. my sister and i were so embarrassed with him that we went to the other side of the store and ignored familiarities with him.

i can still see those condoms everyday. my careless brother just left it on my mother's office table for everyone to see, even to our guests.

the next store we went to is harmless enough. my favorite in fact. the national bookstore. my brother went to buy some decorating materials for his collage while the rest went to find some books and entertainment magazines.

my sister confided to me later that day that our dear brother is planning to put a picture of a penis in the cover of his collage. you see, the guy is a serious nutcase.

anyway, as i was saying in the first paragraph, our brother suggested to read some of the licentious books he bought for the project. my sister is actually reading one right now as i type this.

i'll leave it to your decision if my brother is just really studious and serious with his studies or if he's a plain perverted crackpot.

hahaha...

yesterday.

2008-04-26T12:03:00.002+08:00

my brother is so freaking rich.
but i guess he deserves it. all those nights burning the midnight (dawn) oil.

smart + hardworking = filthy rich.

hmm...if i become a good sister, i'll probably share some of his blessings. but then, he's so stingy.

the whole family, except for the marmoset went to the Film Institute in UP diliman yesterday. the graduation of the economic people was held there.

my mother was fooled into buying 2 corsages (im not sure if that's the correct plural) for 100 each. it turns out corsages were not official, they are not needed. contrary to what the guy said that it is official and needed. my mother was really angry. she tried to look for the guy who sold her the corsage but failed to find him.

the place was almost full. i noticed that there are more girls then boys. the guys wore barong and the girls wore white dresses. they all had the red UP sash hanging on their shoulders like in the pageant.

winnie monzon was there. she's one of the professors. the guest speaker was robina gokongwei-pe. she was funny but i didnt understood some of the things she mentioned. it was amusing when she connected the law of supply and demand with her kidnapping in the 80's. the kidnappers were asking for 7 million php. she explained that there are only few kidnappers that time so they were asking for a big ransom money. now that the supply of kidnappers are many, they demand less ransom money. some even only ask for a few thousand now.
she also mentioned a lot of familiar laws in economics. too bad i forgot what mrs. recosana has taught us. haha.

my brother won the jose encarnation jr. award. that award is for the highest scorer in the whole economic college. my bro got a 1.0 for his grade. the highest one in all the years the college of economics existed.

he got another award. i forgot what's it called. he and his partner phillip libre got 50 thousand each for garnering first place in the thesis they wrote. i forgot the title, but i remember that it sounds very boring. haha.

a few days ago, my bro's godmother gave him 20 k. he has 80 thou now!! and he will still receive money from merry angel's and the lim association. lucky lucky duck.

i saw bernadette lopez. she was wearing this white dress with a puffy skirt. those who are in charge have voted. those who are accused are to received the awards they deserved, though there are awards that are still pending. there were only 12 people who voted no.

in the college of BS economics and economics with business management there were 4 summas, 37 magnas, a lot of cum laudes and the rest are in the dean's list.

smart group huh.

after the show, there were a lot of picture taking. my brother is always surrounded by women. it seems like he has more girlfriends than boyfriends. haha.

my sister and i were bored watching him take pictures so we created a theory that daryl only got his high grade because he and his professors were really "close."

hmm..

2008-04-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

You're Not Very Fit And you're likely to admit that exercise just isn't your thing.
Maybe you need to experiment with new activities to find something you love.
Whether it's roller derby or surfing, just getting out there and moving will do wonders!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouafitgirlquiz

this just tells me im gonna die early.
and no people, that's not my butt displayed in there. mine is much worse.
sorry for the image

tag the 2nd

2008-04-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

Share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you.
Then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.
– Each blogger must post these rules first.
– Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
– Bloggers who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
– At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
– Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

so........i got this from the nanny

1. i call my sister sissy and that's what she calls me too
2. i didnt expect this but i came to like reading love stories, though i remain a cynic and not a romantic
3. i like to have a pet cat or dog but im scared of them. im always afraid that they might bite me
4. my sister does the fittings when i buy my clothes. im always lazy to try on clothes. i just sit on the fitting room floor and fold the clothes my sister has tried on.
5. most days, i eat a banana.
6. some of you may know this but hopefully did not notice. haha. my face always has a zit. when one disappears, another pops out. haha. right now i have nine pimples
7. i forgot when. but i stopped watching horror movies already. it makes me afraid of the dark
8. when it comes to character traits, i am more like my mother.the sad news is, the traits i inherited from her are the traits i dont like in her. ah life.

geez, did i just pour my heart out?

nah.

i tag: ely, kjc, cj, claron, charlene, sean, irene, dianne

adios mi amigas!

tag tag tag

2008-04-23T19:22:00.002+08:00

you tag me? didnt see it. haha

here's the g, candice:

1. um....gum....chew...chew...chew...
2. gun-bang bang bang
3. gaudencio-an ugly name...no offense to those who own it. oh i forgot, one of my uncles has the name. well...shh...
4. gaga...no, i dont mean anything bad, you green-minded moron, i meant that as a baby's first words, well syllables.
5. gay...hmm...
6. gosh gosh gosh
7. gee
8. gargle...everytime i hear that word or its sound, i think of bacteria
9. gambit-never knew the meaning of that word...christian??
10. God...hi God!! um...i need to talk with you...badly.

there.
now who's the nerd? wahaha...di, yan lang talaga ang mga naisip ko. im tired kasi eh...haha...excuses excuses pa.
chioa...next time na yun 8 items...i might miss american idol...i did this first because its faster..,
till next time!!

10 words that start with k:

2008-04-22T13:29:00.004+08:00

1. kamikaze-we have one thing in common, the willingness to die anytime.
2. kowtow-see post in jan. 3, 2008
3. kitkat-yum yum yum
4.KFC-my fave chicken
5.Kepler's first law- law stating that the orbit of each planet is an ellipse with the sun at one focus of the ellipse or something like that.
6. k-what appears if you press button no. 5 twice.
7. kjc07-haha
8.kinanesthesia-inability to sense movement. a wonderful feeling. might as well die.
9.kiwi-the kiwi ate the kiwi
10.Klinefelter's syndrome-xxy

hey gramps!!

2008-04-22T13:15:00.002+08:00

my relatives on the father side are here. so im hiding in our office. well, my parent's office. i'm not the sociable type. haha. they're here because according to the chinese calendar, it's my grandpa's death anniversary today. yeah, i miss the guy. he's a good grandpa. probably because
a. when i got a hundred in school, he would give me a hundred pesos
b. when i was little, he would always lift me up and then down and then up and then down and then.....well, you know
c. he gave me my first cigarette. and in turn, made me sworn it off. haha
d. when he gets angry, he becomes funny. well, at least for us siblings. he will threaten us and we will laugh. okay, that sounds mean.

im not that mean. i love the dude. sometimes i pity him because some of his children do not love him. not really to the point of hating, it's just that they're not too happy with him. i hear stories from our maid that's been staying here a long time. it seems that he was a strict father and employer. there's a lot of stories, but well, maybe next time.

what the heck happened to jesse mccartney?!? he suddently turned into a pervert. or maybe, he's been one for a long time already.

2008-04-21T19:34:00.001+08:00

eeeeeeekk

2008-04-21T16:39:00.002+08:00

just to those people who are unaware. and maybe even dont care...
im saying it anyway
my school is ust and my course is pt.
pt stands for point. end. yes, the end of my life.
i just want to die.
before june comes.
geez, im so weak.
pathetic.
my paternal aunts told me that i should have chosen nursing.
my mother's friends told me nursing is better.
4 years is better than 7 yrs.
not to mention it's a lot easier according to my sister.
not to mention "mas matino" ang mga tao sa nursing.
ah whatever.
at least madali lang math. that's my only consolation...
pero sa nursing madali rin math eh.

$%^&* $%^

ignore this post.
everybody knows boredom can entertain unwanted thoughts...

what's for dinner

2008-04-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

THE DINNER.....bow

rice...duh!

2 sunny side ups...yum...especially if flavored with seasoning (toyo)...i dont like catsup...well except when it comes to fries. i know eggs are usually for breakfast, but it's a long time already since i last had one...the beauty of sleeping late....you can always pig out later to compensate for the lost breakfast.

soup...dont know what it is called but there's beef, veggies and bola-bola in it. oh, and some medicine our guama gave us. she claims that it can help us eliminate toxins in our body. but according to my sister, it did nothing but made her fart. i still cant feel the farting now...but maybe tonight when im asleep. does one fart when she's asleep? (um..i hope you're not eating now while reading this.)

more of the medicine. this time without the soup.

prunes. my father insisted that i eat to again eliminate toxins. i dont know what's wrong with my family, they suddenly became health conscious.

noodles...you know the preserved ones where you need to add hot water, drain, and later the seasonings. i dont know the brand, since i am not the type to look at brands, but i know that the flavoring is crab chilli. im not really scared to get cancer because i ate those anti-oxidants. haha

chocolate milk...i forgot how many glasses since i just kept on pouring while watching babangon ako at dudurugin kita. all i know is that i finished the whole liter. well, not the whole liter, since someone drank before me...but it's still a lot because i feel like bursting now.

but that didnt stop me from wanting to eat ponkans. problem is, our maid closed the kitchen and so i can't get the citrus fruits...too bad.

im sorry for this boring entry...it just reflects my boring life...and my love for food.

computer's fixed!!

2008-04-14T12:12:00.003+08:00

finally, the computer is fixed. and you know what the problem is? just a stupid piece of wire. a stupid piece of thin wire that rendered the big and mighty CPU useless. oh life....

there are many times that i would want to write (i mean type) something on this blog, but because of that stupid wire, i cant. and now i can, i dont know what to write. haha.

oh, maybe you're interested to know why my family's last name is evangelista. it's nothing interesting actually. it's just that some people are wondering how could we have that filipino surname when we claim to be pure chinese. i've always thought that we just bought it like the others, but i just found out that that was not the case. haha. that's waht happens if you choose to be ignorant of your own ancestors.

so here's the story...

once upon a time (haha), there lived a boy named potenciano evangelista. we are not sure of his heritage, if he's a true blooded filipino or if he has some chinese blood. there's nothing mentioned about any family or relatives. the only thing my father can say is that he's probably 10 or 11 yrs old that time. so anyway, for unknown reasons, he went to china.

and also for unknown reasons, he died there. i dont know what age. the only thing we can be sure of is that he never return to the philippines. and so the next thing my father told me is that there is this chinese guy who went to the philippines and claimed to be potenciano evangelista. yes guys, that chinese guy stole the poor boy's name. i asked my father how he could do that, just steal someone's name. and my father answered that there are a lot of lost documents just flying (his word) around that time, the chinese dude probably stumbled upon potenciano's passport. and since that time the pictures are black and white and the place was in chaos, the chinese guy was able to come to the philippines. cheat his way to the philippines, that is.

in my opinion, he probably killed potenciano in able to come here. haha. though my father refuse to accept that theory. i guess he just doesnt want to accept that there might be a murderer in our blood. haha. because it just so happens that that chinese dude is my paternal grandmother's father.

so anyway, the new potenciano married a chinese woman in the philippines and they both have filipino citizenships. they had 5 children. 3 boys and 2 girls. the 2 elder sons died in the war in the hands of the japanese. tsk tsk. my ama is the youngest of the children and she hates the japanese. haha.
my ama is a pure blooded chinese with a filipino citizenship. her name is ana evangelista.

and so ana evangelista met go guan. my 6 foot 1 angkong and they married.
my ankong, 林永遠, is a chinese citizen but he has a green card so he was able to stay here in the philippines. the two never married. i dont know why. but anyway, they 8 children consisting of 5 boys and 3 girls. that time, the consititution doesnt allow illegitimate children from having their fathers' surname. and since my father is illegitimate, he had evangelista for a surname, not lim and he also has no middle name. on the bright side, he's a filipino citizen. when some of his younger siblings were born, the constitution changed so they were able to obtain the surname lim.

yes, i am a bastard's daughter. haha. i am so mean.

and my mother? well, she's a filipino citizen even though both her parents are chinese. something to do with the changing of the constitution again. geez, i cant be a politician. i dont understand how the freaking constitution works. so my mother's whole name is pinky cheung go. pinky tsonggo. haha. wala lang.

help

2008-03-24T12:04:00.004+08:00

went to ust today.

hahaha. passed the interview in nursing. gee, i cant believe they believed my lies. lies about being a close family (i.e. i can tell my family anything, no secrets), attending church at least once a month...blah blah blah...at least i didnt lie about contributing something to the community, esp. my barangay. i just told them honestly that i dont throw my trash on the streets. yep, that's my community service--not littering.

though one question bothered me. which would i prefer to see, feces or a broken bone. ah...broken bone? they just nodded. and inside my brain i was like what the heck did i get myself into. i realized i dont like to see both.

im pathetic.

hahaha. sa 26 pa malalaman kung pasa ako sa PT.

confirmation sa nursing april 2 and 3.

hahaha. 1 more week to decide what course to take.

bloody life.

yes, i agree with you, pat, parents, especially fathers are nuisances. i was 90% sure na i will choose PT. i told him that. and do you know what the dude said? actually, 'twas lectured. he gave this long monologue about they (my parents) being old and they cant be there for us forever. and if you want to go to college just for the sake of a degree and not a good job, then dont go to college at all. and remember, you cant rely on your husband to feed you even if he's rich, he might be a mama's boy and you might not be in good terms with your mother-in-law.

um...what does those have to do with me wanting PT?

and then he continues about knowing someone (he claims to always know someone, i think he knows the whole world) whose daughter took PT and cant get a job after she graduated.

but then i replied, some people i know (this is true and i am not following his style) informed me that PT is in demand in some parts of US.

Popsy: yes, but you need to get a masters degree.
me: yes, i already know that (he already mentioned it a lot of times). what's 7 years if i really like PT?
Popsy: there's a big difference between 7 years (2 years masters kasi required yun if you want to work abroad) and 4 years in nursing. and remember, we will not be always there for you. im 50 now. you want me to work until im 57?
me (did not answer since he's not really working. it's more like ordering people around. our shop is not earning any money after all. and we still have to pay the workers because they are working. working about stupid things like painting the house and installing lights that we dont need)

crap, now i feel guilty. im a bad daughter.

Popsy continues: it's a lot better if you graduate early and work early. you'll save more and can retire young. and he goes back to his first lecture...

yes, i know, he just wants the best for me. but i feel so confuse and stress out. i dont want the day to come that i will be very poor and my nursing sister would be very rich. and then my father will always give the the i-told-you-so look and speech for the rest of my pathetic life. huhu

and then a while ago i learned na maraming bumagsak sa PT. so magiging irregular sila and will need to study one more year. 6 years na sila. ang dami raw talaga bumagsak, esp sa anatomy and physiology. yun anatomy nila concerning the cadavers na. yes, they already made hiwa-hiwa with the dead body. haha. huhu.

i dont have the heart to slice a frog. what more a cat? a shark? a freaking corpse?

and yun mga prof sa PT in UST, nagbabagsak daw talaga. pero yun nursing, nagpapasa sila. pag 74 ginagawang 75. tsaka mukhang mas madali yun nursing kasi wala ng corpse. haha.

haha. huhu. hahaha. huhuhu.

now, im really confuse.

to PT or to nursing. that is the question.

please help this pathetic and mix up girl.

meanwhile, im going to drown myself with books. there's a part in the kite runner that i find very disturbing. oh well.

uh.

2008-03-17T13:22:00.003+08:00

well....i didnt expect to post a new one so soon...but then if you're bored, if you have no choice.

the reason i didnt expect to post so soon is because i initially planned to do nothing this vacation but read books. but then unfortunately, there's something wrong with me.

it seems that my eyesight is getting worse. i cant finish a book chapter without wanting to throw up. literally. i got this stupid headache everytime i try to read a book. i figure the reason i feel not throwing up now as i am reading this is because the computer screen is a new environment. though i dont know how that makes sense. well, nothing makes sense.

instead of feeling refresh after 12 hours of sleep, i just want to sleep again. i was really surprise because after sleeping really late last sunday morning, i was able to sleep at 10:30 sunday night. i woke up at sometime in noon that sunday, so i was only awake that day for ten hours more or less. TEN HOURS ONLY!!! what is freaking wrong with me?

today i woke up late again. i wouldnt be surprise if i sleep again at 10:30 tonight because im starting to feel sleepy now. what is wrong with my brain? my hypochondriac self is starting to suspect that i have brain tumor. my cousin died of brain tumor last year. who knows, it might run in the family. they (my cousin's family) only found out it was brain tumor after they went to the doctor because they're wondering why my cousin is always asleep.

well, i guess my sleeping late gives a good excuse why i didnt greet candice earlier. happy birthday, dude.

it's not only my brain. it's also my stupid digestive system. i just ate lunch and a dessert and im still hungry. believe me, i ate a lot. have you guys tasted the newest flavor of selecta? the limited edition of brazo de mercedes. it tastes like....brazo de mercedes. well, it's really delicious anyway. you guys should try it. it's P189.

you guys got any suggestions of how to spend my summer? nagmovie marathon na ako kahapon. lalo akong nahilo. haha. sabi ng atsi ko mag-exercise ako. paano kaya yun, gutom nga ako eh. tsaka kakakain ko lang. grabe talaga, ang contradicting noh. haha.

buti na lang may radyo, titingin na lang ako sa ceiling namin na may decoration na dots habang nakikinig ng music....

o kaya...magpapainit na ako ng noodles...cge na....im gonna pig out na lang while watching bullet-proof monk starring chow yun fat for the nth time...

if i keep up with this, baka di na ako makapunta sa prom. it's either di na ako makasya sa gown ng atsi ko or hospitalized na ako.

grr....sumasakit naman uli ulo ko............

im dying....help...

psst..

2008-03-14T18:45:00.002+08:00

grabe, narinig niyo na ba ang latest sa up diliman?
may mga nagsasabi na nagcheating daw and candidate for summa na si bernadette lopez. sobrang pinagkakalat, pero walang concrete proof. ang masama, baka di makagraduate itong si lopez. nalaman ko lang ito dahil pinag-uusapan ng mama at kuya ko. worried si momsy kasi baka madamay si Daryl. kasi naman, next in line siya sa candidate sa pagkasumma. kung ayaw ipagraduate ng UP si lopez, yun daryl nayun ang magiging summa. basta ngayon, nagkakaroon ng mga questioning, inaalam ang katotohan. yun lang nga ang hirap kasi walang gusto mag-witness. sabi ni daryl nagbobotohan daw ang mga propesor ngayon. grabe naman yun, may justice ba si lopez at ang kanyang mga kasama kung sa boto lang dadaanin.

read niyo to, ang panig ni bernadette lopez

http://beachbaby.multiply.com/journal/item/125

im gonna miss you piple though this title is not related to my post. haha

2008-03-13T18:20:00.003+08:00

yes, lilipat na si ara christine reyes (that's her whole name) sa abs-cbn. happy raw siya roon kasi mababait daw mga tao roon. haha. nameet na kaya niya si devel locsin? haha. gagawin niya yun remake ng eva fonda 16. dati yun ginampanan ni alma moreno. may pagka-x-rated yun, pero alam mo naman si christine...may experiences na siya. lalo na sa movie niyang green paradise, pero nilangaw raw yun eh. tapos yun next movie niyang "ate" kasama at prinodyus ni hazel reyes (a.k.a. ara mina). may bed scene siya roon kasama ni paolo paraiso, ang husband ni ara sa movie. haha. imagine mo? nakipag*** ka sa asawa ng kapatid mo. haha...masking fiction lang yun noh...kadirs pa rin...

hay naku, ano ba tong pinagsusulat ko...i always forget that majority (if not all) of my readers are minors. sorry ah, alam mo naman utak ko...pristine as the green waters....haha...naalala lang kita berns.

yey...rami pupunta sa prom...dapat lang, last na natin time na pwede magwala. haha. di naman kasi tayo pede magwala sa graduation at baccalaureate....may mga matang nakatingin. lalo na yun laging magkasama...haha

grabe, im gonna miss you all...

p.s. to my honeys na di magu-ust...
sorry ah, pero kasi papakasalan ko sa simbahan ng ust ang mga honeys ko na magaaral sa ust...i believe congratulations are in order for me...haha

haha

2008-03-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

bloody mr. rapper...

grabe naman yan, iiwanin na nga natin siya may pahabol pa siyang ek ek.

compilation tsuva pa siya. eh, pinakinggan lang naman natin yun mga story niya na parang nasa kindergarden tayo. ba't pa kailangan ng compilation? it's not like we read anything.

hay naku, dati puro angel locsin, ngayon puro turon naman. well, mabuti na yun no...gusto niyo ba magsimula ako sa paglilipat ni christine reyes? haha

mr. rapper's question

2008-02-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

Mr. Rapper asked us: " Did the men deserve to die? Why/why not?"

Well, technically, they deserve to die since they were stupid enough to look for Mr. Death in the first place. But if you want other reasons...
1. they're hedonistic drunkards who can't contribute anything good in this already pathetic world.
2. they make this world a worse place
3. they are avaricious men who will never be satisfied. Ought to kill them now to end all their future discontentment.
4. it's a big possibility that they will destroy other people's lives because
a. their drunkards so they might hurt someone in the fit of madness
b. in their discontentment, they might harm others just to get what
they want.
c. they can murder, even their so-called friends, for shallow reasons
d. they are snakes, traitors, betrayers and double-crossers.
5. with their commendable character traits, im sure somebody will kill them sooner or later.
6. to lessen the population of useless, criminal minds
7. and the last reason those men deserve to kick the bucket, well, it serves as a moral lesson for all of us.

GO PARDONER!!....... even if you too deserve to die......mwahaha....i guess i deserve to die too..........let's get drunk....yeah!!! i pity you minors out there......you guys cant enjoy the feeling of drunkeness and freedom.... =D
tsk...tsk...tsk

rattle.... rattle...oh stop it,,, you stupid head

2008-02-27T19:08:00.004+08:00

there's something rattling inside my head, or maybe just inside my ears..
when i turn my head, i can hear something moving inside. just like the last piece of tic-tac being shaken inside its container.
veavinne, give me more...
you want a piece of me....
yes, i want a piece of orange-flavored tic-tacs...
yum...
it's either my brain has already turn lose or it's just some piece of cerumen moving around. haha.
did i gross you out or something?
oh, sorry then.

pain in dawn

2008-02-21T19:03:00.003+08:00

okay, so it was dawn. how did i know? duh, i look at my cell, since i dont have a clock.

okay, so i was dreaming. i have forgotten what the dream is all about. but im pretty sure it's not the barbie dream. to those who dont know what the barbie dream is, it's the dream where in i find myself in a hallway where in the paintings on the wall are "natatanggal" na and the overhead lights are flickering on and off. i cant describe it that much but it's one of the most unforgettable dreams i have. anyway, it's called the barbie dream because in that dream, i am beheading barbie dolls and throwing their heads in the trash can. i dont remember why, but there are also a lot of blood everywhere.

anyway, im pretty sure its not the barbie dream because i'll surely remember it.

and so i was dreaming...and then i woke up because i felt excruciating, and i mean really agonizing pain in my left calf. i was suddenly wide awake when i realized i cant bend my knee. i touched my calf and felt it to be very hard. yes, HARD. its like i cant press my skin. although i find it quite impossible now as i am typing this. the pain was well, i cant say unbearable since i've obviously bore it, but its extremely harrowing that i felt like screaming. the only thing that stop me is that because i dont want to wake up the other members of the family even if they are in the other room. the next thing i did is just lied still there in my bed and inhaled and exhaled...inhaled and exhaled...and feeling a pulse pumping in my calf (is there a pulse in the calf area?) and after some time, i tried to bend my knee again and yes, i've accomplished the used to be simple task, but with some groaning. i dont think i was able to sleep again, but when my mother called me to come down, i didnt feet any pain at all. hmm..

can you imagine me doing all those stuff? haha...well, its better if you dont.

i didnt tell my mother because i know what she'll say: EXERCISE!!

haha...i believe i really need to do 20 laps in the quadrangle. but sadly, that's not my punishment in scouting..sigh...

im back!

2008-02-20T18:15:00.004+08:00

oh yes, the stupid dsl is finally working! well, for now.. i gotta hurry, it might disconnect anytime.
now, that im inside my blog, i dont know what to put. hahaha.
oh, you might not be interested with this, but im saying it anyway. i dont hate angel locsin that much anymore. how did i find out? well, i just saw her new commercial and i didnt feel anything. maybe im just numb. oh well, it's still an improvement compared to last time. everytime i see her face or hear her voice, i just want to change the channel. now, i dont feel anything. maybe it started when i found out her real name is angelica. yes, angelica colmenares. alang alang kay angie, i will try to accept devel, i mean angel locsin's decision.

hmm...ano kaya punishment ko sa scout? talaga bang susuot ako ng type a for the whole week? noooooooooooooooo. ...mas nanaisin ko pang mag-twenty laps or a hundred pumpings. at least doon, papayat ka. haha. pero kasi naman, ikinahihiya ko talaga yun type a. im not proud to be a scout, unlike other people.... pero, even until now, di pa rin ako nagsisisi na pinili ko ang scouting over sa CAT. i dont know why.

grabe, ang sarap ng araw ngayon. kumbaga sa ingles, delicious day. haha. puro free time!!

grabe, lapit na graduation....im not yet ready to say goodbye to my friends and batchmates...pero sa ibang mga tao...well, adios na lang sa kanila!!

2008-02-13T20:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!!

remember, love can change the world!!

--ST. VALENTINE'S STORY--

Saint Valentine is said to have lived in Rome during the third century. That was a long time ago. During this time Rome was ruled by an emperor named Claudius. Many people did not like the ruler.
Claudius was having trouble getting men to serve in his army. He felt many men would not volunteer to join because they did not want to leave their wives and families. He thought that if men were not married, they would join the army. So Claudius passed a new law which did not allow any more marriages. Most people thought this law was cruel. Valentine, who was a minister, did not support the new law.
Even after Emperor Claudius passed the law, he kept performing marriage ceremonies secretly. One night he was caught and thrown in jail and told he would be put to death.
Many young people came to visit Valentine. One was the daughter of the prison guard. On the day of his death Valentine wrote a note to the daughter signed "Love from your Valentine". This was on February 14, 269 A. D.
Some say this started the custom of exchanging love messages on Valentine's Day.

http://arthur.k12.il.us/arthurgs/valstory.htm

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2008-02-06T16:18:00.000+08:00

why? oh why o why?
i think my ipod nano is broken. yes, broken. i haven't used it yet and it is already broken. where is the justice? i had this ipod for 1 year and three months already, and yes i know, im stupid for not using it. but now that i want too, i find out that it is broken. well, im not really sure if its broken. but how can you describe it when the only things that come out of the screen are thin, colorful horizontal and vertical lines. even if its turned off, the stupid lines are still there.
no wait, dont tell me this is karma for not using it after all these months. but heck, i dont know how to use it okay. im stuuuuuuuuuuupid. i never asked for an ipod, i have always been contented with my cel's radio. but my father had to insist that i have one so that i would know something about the fast pace technology and not be left behind.
everytime someone asks me about my ipod, i feel so stressed out. my dad bought it for P11,000+ that time. im sure that it would be a lot cheaper today. i feel like im wasting money everyday. but what can i do? i really tried to learn how to use, but until now, im still confuse.
i have always hated technology. if it wasn't for charlene, i wouldnt care about having an email or a ym. and if it wasnt for krizia, i wouldnt have this blog. point is, i was never really interested with technology and the new things coming out. like a while ago, i was so bored for doing nothing that i borrowed the marmoset's PSP. i played tekken for a while. i used jack 5 and won most of the time. but i already got bored even before half and hour has passed. you see, i was never really interested. and to top it of, im not good with using these new gadgets that are coming out.
i wished i had lived centuries ago. im sure i'll survive. heck, those people survive, why not me? i dont care if they think women are the inferior ones. actually, that would be good for me since im not really an independent kind of person. im very much fine with other people ordering me around. im spineless.
geez, im starting to get depressed again. im so pathetic and weak.

im in love

2008-02-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

okay.

breathe....inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale....

stay calm...keep your mind empty...

yes....but not that empty....you're too stupid already...

okay....inhale...exhale...

i love angel locsin. i am forgiving her for leaving GMA.

i love angel locsin.

i love angel locsin.

i love angel locsin.

no...she's a bey%$#@..

i love angel locsin.

i love angel locsin.

no, she's freaking ungrateful..

breathe...phoebe...breathe....

i love angel locsin.

i love angel locsin.

nooooooooooooo..........this is impossible..

i love angel locsin, despite what she did..

Jesus said to love one another....

love one another....

and that includes demonic angels...

okay... scratch that....

im sure she's a good and kind-hearted person...

yeah right.!

i love angel locsin....

i love her....

oh God, Father Almighty! help me!!!!!!!

karma

2008-02-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

this is karma.

it seems that i have to live with the stupid angel. live with it in the sense that everytime i open my blog, i would see an angel. and guess who'll it remind me of?

someone advised me to upload it. but, it's a tiring process. so forget about it. i also dont want to make another blog.

got any pieces of advice to take that stupid thing off my face? just because im trying to like her doesnt mean i want to be reminded of her everytime i open my blog.

please tell me you have the answers.

it really cant be remove. i was informed that it is already part of the theme. i want to laugh at that. why would i want a theme like that?

but to the one who helped me, thanks.

and can i just ask something God? is this a punishment? the consequence of my ridiculous hatred towards someone i have never even met?

or maybe, one of my honeys put a bad luck spell on me. or worse, a curse.

ya, that must be it. because we also dont have water for these past few days already. kailangan ko mag-igib ng tubig sa kapitbahay para lang makaligo. ang bigat kaya ng balde.

some life i got.

2008-02-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

look, just ignore the angel.

i cant remove it.

the computer doesnt want to.

it's just a mistake.

anyway...

im just trying to accept what she did.
im sick and tired of hating people, especially people i never met.
i'll still be loyal to seven, but i wont hate abs-cbn anymore.

jesus said to love one another.

that's what im trying to do.

i dont want God to hate me.