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tuloy tuloy tests namin!!

theo-divided into 2 quizzes. first quiz...elck! so hard. and im not exaggerating. the 2nd quiz....i think i did not follow the directions. -_-

english...if clause statements...parang elem..medyo naguluhan...medyo lang naman..^_^

absent math prof!!! yehey!!! 2 hours lunch!!!...dinala niya anak niya sa ospital..oops!!

zoo lec...60 items!! 40 minutes!! buti na lang multiple guessing...papasa kaya ako? 50-50

hay....nakakatamad pumasok bukas...world lit namin 3 "short" stories kailangan i-read. hmf!

ang mamahal ng books sa ust!! mas maliit pa sa ntb...P200. kaunti lang yun nilaki-P295. yun zoo book pag sa national, P999. may mga manuals and tsuvah pa!! ubos na allowance ko!!

kaya kaninang lunch...cheesburger lang food ko. hungry pa tuloy ako. sniff. sniff.

pigs

i hate this house!! or rather, i hate the people living in here!!!!

they're all a couple of gluttonssss.

laging agawan sa pagkain dito. parang mga patay gutom!!

ang di lang pinag-aagawan ay ang mga di masarap. at pag di masarap...it will just rot in this household.

mais lang, ayaw pa ako tirahan. dapat talaga mauna ka sa pagkain kundi mauubusan ka.

di lang sa pagkain, pati na rin sa inumin. mga juice, chocolate milk, soy milk and mga tsuvah agawan din.

walang hiya tong bahay na toh!! kaya wala laging pagkain in the middle of meals. wala laging snacks. kasi pagbumili, ubos kaagad.

minsan kanya-kanya na lang kami...kaya lang...may magnanakaw...bigla mo na lang mapapansin may kumain na ng share mo!! masking kahit anong tago mo.

mga baboy!!!

there, it's nice to vent.

hahaha

grabe, rami pala GC sa amin. as in grade conscious.

daming umiyak after our practical test in the lab. our topic was focusing. we should be able to focus a strand of our hair under the LPO and HPO. one minute each.

actually, most of us marunong naman. including me. nagagawa ko siya. kaya lang, sobrang time pressure that time. and i BLAME THE LIGHTS. sa dulo kasi ako, hirap hanapin ang ilaw. haha. kaya ayun, 0/20 ako. etlog. haha. kasi by the time i found the light, one minute is over. naguguluhan pa ako kung ano ang concave at ano ang convex.

on the BRIGHT side, i got closer to a classmate. pareho lang kasi kami na hanggang ilaw lang ang nakita. so we talked and laughed about it. we reasoned that what is the essence of finding a piece of hair strand when it has no meaning. but for the minority of us, we found the LIGHT!! very meaningful, di ba?

yehey. hay, baliw talaga ako. di ko nga alam ba't di ako nalungkot. mahirap din kasi yun bawiin. lalo na na may written test din on the same day before the practical test took place. i dont know where the prof got her questions. i hate identification! tapos may problem solvings pa-finding the actual size of the specimen. nalito pa ako sa una kung paano iconvert ang milli sa nano. haha. parang walang natutunan sa high school.

test ko sa phil his....pasang-awa. lagi naman akong pasang-awa eh. paano naman kasi, di ko alam mga regions dito sa pinas. malay ko ba kung saan yun basilan. may inilabas din kalantiaw code. um, what's that??? stupid william henry scott. may urduja pa. aba, malay ko ba. i didnt watch the movie noh. haha.

masaya lang sa math. hehe. algebra expressions lang kasi. problema lang kung careless ka. pero yun mga mali ko sa test puro concerning definitions. haha. i forgot na kasi what's the difference with rational and irrational. what are real numbers? mga ganun tsuva.

well, ganun talaga buhay. uy, paraang umookay yun coping mechanism ko rito sa college ah. hehe. diniscuss kasi sa socio yun coping mechanism ng isang tao. ikwinento ng prof namin na as PT students, dapat mataas yun coping mechanism namin. dapat may SIGNIFICANT OTHER kami na pwede i-vent ang mga problems with, or else we might end up like the past UST students who committed suicide.

one guy shot himself in the head because of family and grade problems. he should be in 5th year right now. another girl jumped from the top floor of the commerce building because of her grades. nakita raw ng prof namin na yun ulo ng girl pumasok sa neck niya. kasi sa ulo raw yun impact. hay, yun commerce building pa naman ang katabi ng building namin, the med building. and there's this guy who broke up with his girlfriend. he also jumped from the commerce building. pero ang hulog niya sa legs so nabuhay siya. kaya lang, the car he landed on was damged. he had to pay for it. and he had to transfer school because of shame.

well, since nagkahiwalay-hiwalay na tayo, wala na akong significant otherssss. i dont talk much to my honeys here in UST. iba kasi courses and sometimes building namin so laging hanggang hi lang. this just tells me that i need to find new honeys quickly. i need someone to vent my problems with. pero for now, this blog would do. so if i kept on posting bad things in my blog, you'll know that i still dont have any significant other to vent to. :)

the happenings

our theo prof looks mean. she's very demanding. daming pinapabili...ang epsi niya. haha. she gave us an assignment about thinking of an "anagram" for our names. and then explain in essay form. grabe, ang tagal ko mag-isip. palibhasa, di ko kilala sarili ko.

and you know what's really annoying? i left my assignment at home!! i remembered that i left it when we were already in NLEX. even though my class is still at 10, the car can't go back because the marmoset would be late. so i kept my mouth shut. if i tell my mother my predicament, she would surely lecture me. she would nag me for many days and i dont want that. everytime she gets angry and lecture us, she looks like she's going to have a heart attack, so we dont want to tell her any bad news.

so what i did is go to school at 11. after the theo subject. is that considered cutting class? haha. i went up the 6th floor at 11 to see that our theo prof is not yet finish lecturing. i met a classmate outside the hallway who's also late. like me, he doesnt want to go to class. so i waited in the comfort room for 10 minutes. and when i came out, she's still there!!

i saw our adviser, prof abenir, walking in the hallway, so i quickly looked at the bulletin boards on the hallways. i dont want him to recognize me and ask what im doing outside the classroom. and then i saw our english prof, her subject is after theo. not wanting her to see me too, i hid behind a post. i felt like a spy. haha.

finally the theo prof came out, i quickly looked at the left side of the hallway's wall and my classmate looked at the right side. we actually looked funny that time. the prof just passed us without any recognition. i hope.

now, im dead. how would i explain my absence? i really have no regrets since it turns out our theo prof also asked my classmates to passed the stuffs she mentioned in the last meeting that we have to buy. and well, i dont have those stuffs so i guess im safe again just for not being there. haha.

our math prof called me to answer on the board for a one time graded recitation. i did not read her lectures (i also forgot to bring them that day) and i already forgot how to do synthetic division. so...poor little me....i really suck in math....i cant believe i forgot synthetic division...such a moron. haha.

our sociology test consisted of a ten item identification type and 5 essays. crap. i dont know german so i wasnt able to answer the question what is the german term for sociological imagination. it happens to be versehen. at least i know the father of sociology. auguste comte. i had a hard time answering the bloody essays...tsk tsk...

it's official. i flunked zoo lec. and the test in zoo lab about microscope...i got a tres. passang awa. haha. nakakainis nga. yun revolting nosepiece, ginawa kong nosepiece revolver...pareho pa rin naman yun di ba? minali niya. haha.

nakakita na rin ako ng paramecium!! haha. ang cu-cute nila!!

nakita ko yun hair ko under the microscope...parang twig!! it looks so brown. di mukhang healthy. haha

saya talaga ng phil hist. game kami ala jeopardy. yun nga lang kulelat group namin. haha. graded game pa naman yun. haha. pero enjoy naman siya.

pansin ko lang ang baba ng grades ko compare sa others...pero kasi naman, mga kaklase ko..valedictorian at mga salutatorian. may isa nga, tatanga-tanga, highest pala sa test. haha.

world lit teacher namin parang walang buhay. ang white niya kasi tapos ang hair niya super straight. ang payat pa. kinda like ms. yao. tapos kung magsalita siya walang buhay. hay.
nagbasa kami ng poem "the introduction" by kamala das. guess what it's about? womanhood. remember ko tuloy si mr. roque. marami rin siyang about womanhood. haha. next story namin about a girl who loves to feel pain. parang baliw nga eh. she's willing to break most of her bones for the sake of beauty. eh, maganda naman na siya eh. may rich boyfriend pa. yun nga lang, may asawa na. haha. kabit lang siya. anyway, she went to brazil to have her bones broken. since she cant take lots of pain killers because she might get addicted to it and experience withdrawal after, she had to settle with enduring and living with the intense pain for many months. in the end, after all the surgeries were done and she has become very very beautiful, she learned to yearn for the pain. in order to feel pain again, she left the boyfriend whom she loved very much. so stupid. kawawang bf, siya pa naman nagfund ng surgeries ng girl. haha. magastos talaga ang mga kabit!

good stuff sandwich the bad stuff

our maid saw my contacts in the comfort room's floor!! after all these days...and the whole family already took baths there. it's good it didnt fall down the drain. it's so dirty!! but it didnt stop me from putting it on my eye!! of course i cleaned it first. im not that stupid.

but im still stupid!!

i flunked the first ever test in my college life!! the subject's zoo. the only freaking major!! and i think it's the easiest test. the test was: "Give 4 properties of life." i know what you're thinking.

that's actually easy. living things grow, reproduce, move, tsuva tsuva...

well, that's what i wrote....since i didnt read the book....since i dont have a book....since the person whom im suppose to buy from is incommunicado!! am i making sense??

so i have no book. so i didnt study. so i failed. i freaking didnt know that she was looking for the answers from the book!! chemical uniqueness, hierarchy tsuva tsuva...geez...how was i suppose to know those stuffs!! oh yeah, i should have read the book!!!

tapos sabi niya after saying the question, "you have one minute." and after 5 seconds of saying that sentence, she announced "PASSED!" geez!!!!

sorry. im using a lot of exclamation points.

our math teacher is a racist.

our english teacher is boring. she loves to talk.

our zoo prof....im not being bias or anything after flunking her test...but di siya magaling magturo. palipat-lipat siya ng topics. ang illegible pa ng handwriting.

our theo prof is absent for the second time. we still dont know what she looked like!!

our phil his teacher is actually good. di siya boring and he knows how to explain. our assignment in this subject for the next meeting is find out the story of maragtas and princess urduja. research why it is false. may game raw kami next meeting. yehey!!

parang gusto ko tuloy manuod ng movie na urduja. kaya lang ayaw ko si regine eh. haha.

so those things are for this day. nothing really exciting. haha.

ignore the title.

first week!

i really hate our uniform. it's so....white!!
every time i go home and change, i always see a dirt or stain on my uniform. and the white buttons are easily removed. i havent worn the blouse and one button dropped out already.

hay!

we already have assignments. what is the connection of PT with sociology and anthropology? whatevah.

we also have to do an essay about literature. geez, memories of duron suddenly come flashing back!

filipino: mga teorya uli!! ano ba ang katangian ng wika?? eh ano nga ba ang wika? kasaysayan ng wika? tungkulin ng wika sa tao? ano ba yan, puro na lang wika!!

we're suppose to read chapter 1-3 of our zoo book. problem is, i havent bought the zoo book!! im so dead. and the prof kept on reminding us that she LOVES to give surprise quizzes.

math??? wala pa akong lectures unlike the others. paano naman kasi, ngayong sunday pa lang meron. no way im going to school on a sunday just to get stupid lectures. basic algebra lang naman daw. lang daw oh. parang ang galing ko sa math!! haha

grabe, feeling ko ang close na ng class namin. laging magkasama. bago pumunta sa isang place, laging nagme-meeting muna buong class. ang dami na nagtext sa akin!! yun iba di ko maalala yun mukha!! naku, baka ma-deadma ko sila bukas dahil di ko mamukahan. okay lang, smile na lang ako sa lahat ng tao. feel ko kasi lahat sila same itsura.

dami ding nag-add sa akin sa ym. although im not familiar with their names, cge, bahala na.

PE na bukas!! di ko sure kung saan!! hindi raw kasi sa gym eh. kundi sa labas. open air daw!! ano ba yan!! iitim ako!! haha

grabe, orientation kahapon ng mga PT. tinatakot na kami. sobrang hirap daw. lahat sila yun ang sabi. yun mga PT, okay lang daw mag-med, kasi sanay na sa stress. What?? ayaw ko ng stress!!

natatawa ako sa mga nakasama ko sa tour. pogi kasi SC president namin. haha. ang talino pa, laging nasa DL. sa pinakatuktok ng DL. nakasama namin siya sa lunch kasi buong tour group kami kumain. grabe, haha. turned off mga freshmen girls ng tour group namin nung nakitang naninigarilyo si presidente. tapos habang papalagad kami pabalik sa UST, ang daming mga stops. kasi kinausap pa ni mr. president mga girls na nasalubong namin. haha. muntik na kaming masagasaan kasi nakatigil kami sa gitna ng kalye. haha.

nahulog yun right contacts ko sa cr!! di ko na makita. huhuhu. galit na galit madir ko!! i cant blame her. di pa kasi one month since she bought it for me.

first day!!

i must admit, first day is not bad. actually, im happy with it. our class is noisy and there are a lot of friendly people. i already have 3 new friends-2 girls and a guy, pero madami-dami na rin yun kilala ko.

our adviser's name is marc anthony abenir and he teaches phil history. he's very energetic so i dont think that i would get bored. well, dapat lang kasi math and zoo ang subjects before him. he actually reminds me of sir reyes. haha. there's something in the way he speaks that makes me think that he's gay, but other than that, he seems like a straight guy. but then, he's catholic. we prayed before and after his class. im really bad to think he's gay. haha. but in fairness, may itsura siya ah. haha

ang hilig mag-recite ng class (1PTB) namin. 42 kami sa class today. dami noh. tapos 3 sections. nagintroduce kami during phil history and i found out na marami sa amin marunong mag-play ng musical instruments. may 3 mahilig sa photography at martial arts each. may isa mahilig sa mga trivia. grabe, i feel insignificant tuloy. buti na lang may isang lalaki na ang talent and hobby ay dota. haha.

yun mga prof sa ust, puro late. haha. well, i guess you can forgive them kasi nasa 6th floor kami. ang init init pa! grabe talaga kanina. i was sweating so hard and all my pimples were so red and obvious because of the heat.

during zoo, i found out na marami sa amin ang matatalino. naalala pa nila yun inaral sa high school. mitosis and meiosis. haha. may isa ngang guy nagbigay ng detailed explanation complete with examples. habang nagre-recite nga siya impress na impress ako kasi di ko alam ang mga pinagsasabi niya. ang dami nga sa nag-recite ang articulate magsalita. ang dami nilang alam and they know how to speak them in straight english. ako wala, nakaupo lang dun sa likod. haha.

ang hirap during lunch. may car park nga kami na puno ng restaurants eh puno rin naman ng estudyante. so lumabas pa kami ng new friends ko sa dapitan. puno ang mga fastfoods at ibang restaurants so sa 7 11 na lang kami bumili ng sandwich at patayo kumain. haha. more than 30 minutes kami sa ilalim ng init ng araw na naghahanap ng makakainan, feeling ko tuloy umitim ako. haha.

4 o'clock is our zoo lab kaya lang di namin alam kung saan yun so naligaw kami. nagkalat yun buong class sa buong building. puti yun uniform namin so para kaming lost sheep doon. sa huli, naging 6 na lang ang grupo na kasama ko and di na namin alam kung saan yun iba. di ko nga alam kung bakit walang nag-ask ng help kung saan yun lab. wala rin yata pumunta sa dean gaya ng suggestion ng adviser namin. sa huli, umuwi na lang kami.

gutom na gutom ako paglabas ng ust kasi sandwich lang lunch ko, bumili tuloy ako ng cake sa goldilocks. haha. pag-uwi ko nakita ko na ang daming dumi ng likod ng uniform ko. hay naku, di kasi nililinis yun upuan. haha.

the dastard

school starts on wednesday, the 11. actually, it's on the 10th, but since im not catholic and have no wish to attend mass, im attending on wednesday.

frankly, im not that depressed anymore. im just...scared. i think that most of us is dreading this "new chapter of our lives," but what can we do but go on. because in the back of our minds, we're aware that if we do not pursue this "next chapter", we will regret it in the future.

and what is the future? nothing but bleakness. we can only hope what faces us there, but we can never really be too sure.

im trying to remember all the inspirational message the guidance and counseling center kept on feeding us...and i cant remember anything...well, except that life is all about the journey or something like that.

the question is: are we enjoying the journey?

me? i dont know. because just thinking about my journey from the med building to the gym is frightening for me already.

im afraid to get lost. if i end up the wrong way, literally and figuratively, i wouldn't know what to do. yes, i know God is there. But i'll be honest. my spiritual life--it's kinda sinking. i believe in Him. i just dont ask Him for directions. Yeah, a silly thing to do for someone who doesn't know where to go.

as usual, the conclusion is: im an idiot.
on the bright side, im smart enough to be aware of my idiocy.

whatevah

okay, so i got my contacts. 10 mm in diameters so it was easy to put on. i use it every time i watch grey's anatomy. i already finished season 1 to season. it's actually nice. i now understand why other people love it so much. my sister in particular, is addicted to it. she kept on watching it even after finishing all the 3 seasons. she kept on repeating the scenes that she like. no wonder the cd is starting to get broken.

geez, im starting to freak out. first day of college is getting nearer. it's june already!! i havent buy school materials yet..........................aaaaaaaaaaaarggggggghh