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"Oh why can't he notice me? Why can't he look deep inside my soul and see the real beauty in me? Why does he have to crush on the likes of Seki Takakazu Kowa? Can't he see the I would always be there for him albeit he turns into a cold-blooded fish? if that day would happen, I would truly be the gayest Pangasianodon gigas in the whole wide Pasig River. Amen."

Okay, ignore the first part. I'm just being mean, because well, im mean. Im just not in a good mood due to the feeling of blindness in here. The doctor in the Gems Optical informed me that i got astigmatism (75) in my left eye. Being the dullard i am, i asked her what is astigmatism. Astigmatism whatever it is, sounded scary. But the doctor merely replied that it causes the person to see shadows and feel slight wooziness occasionally.
Oh gee, it sounds really scary. Anyway, i checked Word Web and this is what came out: Astigmatism-.(ophthalmology) impaired eyesight resulting usually from irregular conformation of the cornea; common in nearsighted people. Im nearsighted and im part of the people so it is common and thus i have nothing to fear. Wahaha.Nevertheless, she still took my beloved pink, fragile glasses to do some adjusting. I do not want to but she gaily informed that my left eye vision also worsened from 400 to 450. I wonder if it has to do with sleeping with my hair wet every night. Unfortunately, i forget to ask her trustworthy opinion about it.
So anyway, im feeling almost blind right now squinting hard in front of the computer screen. I feel helpless without my glasses, as helpless as not being able to appreciate hwang jini because i cant see the characters' expressions. i think i know now what blind people must feel. Almost anyway. I can only hope my ears would always be in good condition forever for i will have to rely on them greatly, thanks to my eyesight. But that seems so unlikely for i also always have a pair of earphones on my ears with the music blasting. Oh well.
My lack of eyesight is one of the reasons i failed to attend mtap today. of course, the main reasons was that im feeling indolent, lazy and slothful. Another reason is that im embarrassed to show my face on the public today...and i mean that literally.
i'll tell the story next time for my pathetic eyes are feeling tired right now.
Baboo!

a new dawn

ughhh...krizia forced me!!!!
this is against my will!!!
but i don't know why im typing this!!!!!!
help!!!!
im totally innocent with this!!
how are you suppose to create a blog????