"you dont even say hi to me"-bella

stupid globe broadband. laging may topak. gusto ko nga sugurin yun pinakaboss ng globe, kung sino man siya, para sigawan. nagbabayad kami every month tapos laging may topak naman!

twilight was....normal...ordinary. hindi ako kinilig. parang wala lang. natawa sa kaunting scenes, pero yun lang. i didnt feel anything. wala lang. okay, i know you can get my point now.

i wasnt disappointed because i didnt expect anything.

pero if im going to do some criticing, marami akong masasabing negative. pero let's not enumerate na, baka mawala pa ng gana yun mga manonood. haha. pero no regrets naman. may mga okay rin naman siyang mga scenes.

ANG PANGIT LANG NGA NI EDWARD! parang tinapay na maraming flour. haha

it's been a long time

hay, ang tagal ko na gusto mag-post, kaya lang agawan kami ni atsi ng computer. pag nasa akin na ang computer, kailangan madaliin ko kasi kailangan nga ng atsi ko o kaya masyado nang late.

buti na lang inatras deadline ng theo. wahahaha...

hay naku, i have a bruise again. if you would see my left ring finger now, you wouldnt be able to see may natural skin color because it's covered by the icky color of bruise.

nadisgrasya ako sa volleyball this tuesday. yun tinapon na bola ng partner ko ang lakas. instead of catching it, it hit my poor finger and it was pushed to the opposite direction. i got worried when it started swelling and when i cannot bend my finger without causing intense pain. parang buntis nga yun daliri ko dahil ang laki talaga ng swelling. i thought my finger was broken. good thing it's only the nerves.

my mother was very angry when i first told her. she called me stupid. ouch.

ni-straighten na siya ng friend ng tatay ko na masahista. ang galing nga eh. una ginagalaw galaw lang niya daliri ko. tapos yun relax na ako, bigla na lang niya hinila. napa-aray ako. haha. pero healing na siya ngayon. masking parang kumalat ang bruise. pero okay na kasi nakakatype na ako without the pain. parang ang sarap tuloy maging PT.

okay naman buhay PT student ko ngayon. we're memorizing scientific names of animals na. blah. Trimeresurus flavomaculatus. common name is pit viper. haha. as usual, ang dami uli imememorize. memorize din mga different parts of bones ng shark, turtle, pidgeon at may isa pa.

kaya ko yan!! memorizing is better for me than solving math.

speaking of math, trigo kami ngayon. di na ako highest. puro kasi careless. :(

nakakatawa nga eh. may intercollegiate (colleges between ust) math contest nung thursday. kasali ako at 2 pa galing UNO at Sakya. imagine me, a math contestant. hahaha. siyempre, 5 out of 20 lang nasagutan ko sa first round, so di na ako nakapasok sa second round. di ko alam sa mga kasama ko kasi di ko na tiningnan yun mga results.

hay naku patricia, logic namin di memorize. kailangan logical thinking talaga. eh wala nga ako nun. i remember my high school years wherein i cheat the computer exercises and seatworks because i REALLY HAVE TROUBLE USING LOGIC.

nakakainis. nakakawala ako lagi ng mga gamit. i hate myself.

nakita ko si lea yap sa CR. pareho kasi kami ng building, nursing lang nga siya. anyway, sabi niya tumaba raw ako. ganun. hmf! sabagay, kain tulog pa rin ako rito. di pa naman ako masyado nagpupuyat di katulad ng iba. hahaha.

im gonna watch twilight tomorrow!! nakakabitin daw sabi ng iba kasi ang ganda raw talaga. hmm..let me be the judge of that...

peekaboo....i see you!!

so this is college life...

your writing hand must suffer

your eyes get strain

and your brain...

just threatens to explode.

hmm...

blah bleh blih bloh bluh

both my arms are so colorful.

volleyball is my p.e. for this sem. and so now, my ams have red tiny spots on them. in fairness, masaya pa la ang volleyball. haha. di ko kasi siya na-enjoy kay ortiz. parang nawala nga yun pagkatakot ko sa mga bola eh. well, at least, volleyballs lang. katuwa kanina, hinahabol pa talaga namin yun bola. masking strict yun teacher at madaling magalit, okay naman yun way of teaching niya. well, dapat lang siguro kasi siya na yata ang pinakamatandang p.e. teacher sa ust. wahaha

colorful arms ko kasi di pa gumagaling yun bruises ko on each arm. on the first day of school kasi, i "slipped" on the stairs. well, my feet did. ang ginamit kong pampigil para di ako magtuloy-tuloy pababa ay ang aking arms. kaya ang laki tuloy ng mga bruises. para akong binugbug. una red siya. tapos naging violet and blue, tapos green and yellow, now yellow na lang. haha. parang work of art talaga.

ang nakita lang naman sa akin ay ang statue ni mama mary. galit kaya si mama mary sa akin?

grabe, pinagtawanan ako kanina sa class. nakakahiya. pero not my fault!

time ko na kasi mag-lead ng prayer, so nag-"glory be to the father, to the son and to the holy spirit" ako, imbes na sumagot sila ng "as it was in the beginning.....", tumingin lang sila sa akin. yun pala, di pwede i-pray yun kapag early in the morning. oops. tawa tuloy sila. eh malay ko ba. di naman ako katoliko.

in fairness, im starting to get piss off with the catholic stuff. oh well.

blah

im a PT student! im not majoring in theology!! may comparative anatomy pa kami!! nalilito na nga ako sa mga urochordates, cephalochordates blah blah eh

nang-extra pa ang logic. nosebleed.

but you know, im not yet stress. may be it hasnt sink in yet.

hmm..

%^&*

is she insane???

there's another deadline in theo. december 1. we're suppose to make a powerpoint presentation about gaudium et spes. 'hope and joy'

this is our source. check it out. 58 pages according to microsoft word.

http://www.vatican.va/archive/hist_councils/ii_vatican_council/documents/
vat-ii_cons_19651207_gaudium-et-spes_en.html

and you know what really sucks, we're going to report it. okay, only a few are unlucky coz we all have our respective topics. i just happen to be one of the unfortunate ones.

the suckier part is that what we're going to report is not the powerpoint presentation we will make. she has her own presentation. in short, we should really know the topic so we can discuss whatever part she puts on her powerpoint. the powerpoint we will make is useless. and we are not allowed to read the powerpoint during reporting. we must just glance at it and see what it is all about and we explain it according to what we studied.

freak.

25% of our grade

the suckiest part of all is that we still have the stupid church to do. gagawa pa ako ng mapa kung paano pumunta doon from ust. ang nagagawa ko pa lang ay kalahati ng introduction. di ko pa siya magawa kasi wala pa ako info (history..organizations.. blah blah..). ang dami kaya.

tapos may 6 assignments pa. gawa pa ng mahabang prayer. gawa pa ng isa pang powerpoint presentation tungkol sa mga santo. ugh. puro this month ang deadline. and church thingy lang ang december 5.

church and sacraments din kami, Pat, yun prof lang talaga!

freak

do you know what my hatest subject is?

i thought i would do okay in this subject, well since the topic is about God and blah blah. (Sorry God, no disrespect intended) but you know...this subject takes a lot of my time at home. okay, i wont blame theology, i would blame the freaking prof.

the prof who gave me my lowest grade in the first semester. she gave me 2.00. frankly speaking, i feel that i dont deserve that grade. please. i got a 1.75 in zoo and my theo is only 2??? makes no sense since if you look at my quizzes and shifting grades, my theo is obviously much higher. and do you know what really pissed me off? a classmate of mine flunked some of her quizzes and has 9 absences got a 1.75? where is the justice in that? did she just dart our grades?

in high school, i got some grades that are not that high, like my 80 in 1st year math for example. but i have never gotten mad because i know i deserve it. but this? this is just ridiculous.

i shouldnt be ranting right now. but you know...i just want to crucify her. she gave us so many assignments on the first day. and we have to do this stupid project about getting information about our church. haha, like i have one. i thought it would be easy at first. i mean, st. stephen's parish is always there. but this prof had to announced that in must be near our house's vicinity. ha! i got something to tell you i-use-darts-to-get-your-grades prof, there is no church near our house. well, i dont know if you could count the iglesia ni kristo. i dont even know what kind of religion that is. and we can only reach that ?church? using a car. a 15 min. drive. yep, that's the nearest.

so yeah, i've thought of something. it's bad. it's a lie. but hey, im a bad person. im going to say that i live in quezon city in my aunt's house because she got a church nearby. i cannot say im only there for the weekdays because the i-use-darts-to-get-your-grades prof wont allow it. she said that we must really live in that place in either on weekends or the whole week. i cannot say i live in quezon city in weekends because it wont make any sense since my address in school records say im in valenzuela. so im just going to say that i stay in q.c. during school week so i can be nearer to ust.

great. why am i even exposing this to the whole world? sydney, keep this quiet okay? dont tell her or your classmates. if this reaches her....i dont know...

i'll probably just shoot myself in the head.

oh wait, we dont have a gun.

hmm..quite a dilemma

i can always stab myself with the kitchen knife...

but i might not die quickly...unless i stab my eye and penetrate the brain...but im not sure im even strong enough to do that...

poison and sleeping pills are not bad...but i might feel some stomach pain...

oh well

i can always jump off from the roof top of our building

and i'll probably end up in the news

and my whole family would be shamed.

since when did suicide become so complicated anyway?

um...why do i want to kill myself in the first place again?

haloo peaple!!

pasukan na!!!

who's excited? well, not me.

i dont want my 12 hours a day sleep end!!

but then, who am i to complain? a 3 week break is already very fortunate. unlike stephenians like my brother...wahahaha...unlike those who are working and always end up working over time like my other brother....wahaha...unlike my sister who needs to come to school this week to do her nursing duties and come home to do her homeworks....wahahaha...

you see...im lucky...compare to my poor siblings...

but then...i love sleeping....and attending school 5 days a week prevents me from doing it.

ugh. why can't i just be satisfied with my life?