wala lang

school day tomorrow. boo!!!

i have saturday class. boo!!!!

my saturday class is 1-7pm. booo!!!!!

weeeh

well, well, well...

i'm back. i dont know how the heck how.

naka-sign in lang ako. simple as that. eh dati di naman kaya.

oh, well.

hopefully, this continues so you can see more of me.

wahahaha...who wants to see more of me??

;)

the hunt for the skeleton mode

so, here i am again, in the ust main library, specifically the internet room...just to post on my blog. hahaha. that's a lie! i will not waste my time coming here para lang malaman niyo kung gaano ka-boring ang life ko.

im actually here to take an online exam in lts. our internet connection at home kasi is so bad that i flunked the last time i took the exam there. pero may topak din yun site ng ust. paano ba naman kasi. i answered question #1, tapos ang tagal ng submission so i logged out. may ten minutes time limit kasi ang test. then i logged in again and answered question #2, and lo ang behold! i was surprised to see the warning sign na 1 minute na lang ang natitira! where did the other minutes went eh nag-logged out nga ako?! even if i dont read the questions and just answer randomly, i would fail because the connection is really bad. ten out of ten nga ako, i exceeded my time limit by two minutes naman. 3 questions lang yata yun pumasok sa ten minutes. so im 3 out of 10.

so...i emailed our instructor last august 9. wondering if he can explain the "mystery of the missing minutes." but, he didnt reply. how rude! so i emailed him again last week. still no reply! bahala siya! it is so not fault! sabi niya pag may problema during the exam, we should logged out. that's what i did! if there are other problems, we should email him. that's what i did! boo talaga!!!

well anyway, that was weeks ago.

did i ever mention...no, i believe i did not...i am...the ...well, im the class president. wahahaha. im not trying to be humble here, but im not president material. me no have leadership skills. kaya lang ako nanalo kasi lahat ng magagaling, officers na ng mga orgs so di na raw sila pwde. and another reason is that majority of my classmates this year are my classmates last year. so siyempre, mas kilala nila ako compared to other nominees from the other sections last year.

well anyway, the reason i told you that so that you'll understand why im the one who went looking for the missing skeleton for 30 minutes. haha. di ko alam kung totoong skeleton ba siya o plastic model lang, basta nag-skeleton hunting talaga ako sa buong medicine bldg (our bldg together with future doctors and nurses). gusto kasi ng professor namin na may skeleton model habang tinuturo niya ang skeletal system.

so ayun. i came to school 45 minutes earlier. went to the dean's office to ask for permission. and after some begging, pumayag na rin. so i went to a room in the first floor, kasi nasa room na yun lagi ang skeleton model. wala. so tiningnan ko lahat ng classrooms sa first floor. actually, silip silip lang kasi may mga klase nung time na yun. nakakahiya kung makita ako ng mga teacher. wala. so i went back to the dean's. wala na yun nakausap ko kanina, si kuya jess. so umakyat ako sa 6th floor para hanapin siya kasi dun siya minsan. wala. punta uli ako dean's. dun na siya. tinanong ko kung saan yun model. sabi niya first floor. sabi ko wala. pumasok siya sa isang classroom para tanungin. sa room 609 o 607 daw. 6th floor po yun. so umakyat uli ako. may nakasalubong akong friend so may kasama na ako ngaun. walang skeleton sa buong 6th floor!

grr...baba ako 4th floor. paxok ako sa gross ana lab. may nakita akong cadaver. malayo kaya i cant describe much. maitim siya. payat. tuyo. konti lang buhok. hindi nakakatakot tingnan. mas nakakatakot pa tingnan kung may cover siya. haha. malaki yun lab kaya may 4 akong skeleton model na nakita sa mga sulok ng room. my friend and i were tempted to steal them. pero di na namin tinuloy ang aming balak kasi baka multuhin pa kami. so baba uli kami. buti na lang nandun pa rin si kuya jess. sabi niya di raw pwede kunin yun mga model dun sa gross ana lab. boo! so nag-suggest siya sa room 209. buti na lang meron na dun. haha. pero di kasi siya 100% skeletal model. may mga muscles, nerves, ek ek pa siya.

so the problem now, paano namin i-aakyat yun sa 6th floor? buti na lang nakasabit siya sa pole at may gulong sa ibaba. nakakahiya kaya! lahat ng mga tao tumitingin sa amin. i am not used with all the attention! haha. tapos ako, clumsy person pa. i kept on tripping sa mga gulong. yun friend ko tumatawa na lang.

since yun bldg namin connected sa ust hospital, we were able to go in the hospital and used the elevator there to go up the 6th floor. yun babae nga sa elevator, muntik nang sumigaw nang makita ang skeleton model. tinatanong kami kung totoo ba raw yun. haha. hindi po namin alam. pero mukha siya totoo. except for the muscles and nerves (na mukhang rubber bands).

and so finally, we were able to bring the model in our classroom. buti na lang di nag-absent yun prof (kasi madalas siyang nawawala), kundi sayang lahat ng pagod namin ng friend ko.

nakakatuwa yun prof namin sa biosci. pero that's another post na lang. kasi may time limit kami dito sa internet room! ciao people!

i opine that he's a moron

i just want to complain about a certain english teacher (he's not yet in the professor level) who has been teaching in ust for a few years now. i dont hate him. i just dont like him. yes, im judgemental. but i believe that my reason is valid enough.

i don't like him not because he doesnt know what "opine" means, but because he refuse to take a few seconds of his precious time to look at the dictionary and see what that word means. as an english teacher, it is reasonable to believe that he has a dictionary. maybe even one on his bedside table. but how come when he saw an unfamiliar word a mere student wrote, he quickly considered it as a mistake? why cant he check the dictionary for the possiblity that that word may exist in the freaking english language?

i wrote that word in a freaking essay. essay, okay. it's a written form about opinions. so naturally, i wrote: " i opined that....", and that ass put a questioned mark on the word opine and considered it as a mistake. hey, this is not about my grade. this is about my pride. a pride he trampled on because he indirectly considered me a moron. yes, im a moron. but im not that moronic not to know the word opine! just because im a mere student and he's a teacher doesnt mean that he cant learn a new vocabulary from me!

mwahahaha

sa main lib ako ng ust. may internet room dito. libre! actually, sa tuition namin kinuha. haha.

now that im here, i dont know what to say.

this week is exam week. im suppose to be studying for physics right now. it's so hard..............................

my life....is either on the crossroads, or just..lost.

who cares

1st day

what's wrong with my blog? sometimes i cant sign in. and sometimes i can. obviously.

first day of school??

useless. ang haba ng pila sa entrance ng building namin. may nagchecheck kasi kung may fever tsuva. isang kilometro na nga yata yun pila eh. di pa yun single file. sa huli, dahil nga marami ang mala-late, tinanggal na nila yun checking. haha. walang kwenta talaga.

dalawa lang dapat ang klase today kasi may misa sa umaga. yun isa, di sinipot ng titser, yun isa naman..wala lang. sarado raw yun lab. haha. kaya nga walang kwenta eh.

sayang pamasahe. pero yun isa kong kaklase, sabi sayang daw perfume niya. ewan ko dun sa metrosexual na yun. haha.

halu-halo kami this year. di ginawang alphabetical. so, i still have friends. wahahaha. yun nga lang daming strangers.

ang highlight today...may naligaw ng gwaping ng freshman. english speaking. galing mindanao. yun metrosexual/bisexual kong kaklase (mentioned above), biglang bumait. di ko na idedetalye, basta ang ending, mukhang may bago na siyang boy toy. wahahaha..

nobody commented on my eyes. bwahaha.

this is embarrassing

i do not want it. okay, im lying. i want it just a little, since i sometimes complained about my drooping eyelids. i have friends in ust who sometimes ask if im sleepy or what.i even had a teacher who called me to recite because i looked bored to her. im not! it's just my eyes!

but it seems not only the people in ust notice my eyes. my mother also. well, she should, she's my mother after all. and so, she insisted that i have blepharoplasty, a.k.a. eyelid surgery. i forgot the chinese term, even though i heard it at least 50 times already.

it all began when my sister started complaining about her eyelids. she actually had the same operation when she was 15 years old. she did it few weeks before her high school graduation. her doctor was recommended by our paternal aunt who had her 3 daughters undergo the same operation. i guess it runs in the family. well anyway, my sister was complaining and she wants to undergo the same operation again. so my mother brought her to a plastic surgeon in metropolitan medical center. her previous surgeon is already retired. my little brother and i had to tag along because our car is still not in sshs, so we have nowhere to go but come with them. so this plastic surgeon, dr. sia tiong gam, looked at her eyelids while i tried to stop my brother from destroying the clock in the room. i dont know what's wrong with him and why he seemed so fascinated with the ticking clock.

anyway, the doctor advised my sister not to undergo the procedure because she already did it once and the second time might make it worse instead. my mother, thinking that her time is wasted, called me to ask the doctor if "i" could have the surgery instead. the doc indeed agreed that my eyes dont look lively enough. i told my mom im not so sure about the procedure so we left. but i guess my mother got bothered with the doctor's opinion so she started calling hospitals and looking for surgeons who can do the procedure. she even called belo and calayan. haha. but she doesnt like belo because, well, you saw belo's eyes. not exactly a good example.

i told my mom yes to the operation if she could find a good doctor and at the same time cheap. well, she did the challenge and went back to sia tiong gam. and told the doc to do it this monday. THIS MONDAY! as in, yesterday. of course, i was surprise. im gonna meet you guys this friday and saturday. my eyes, i mean my eyelids, wouldnt be a pretty sight even on that day. but it was already book and my mother insists the earlier the better so i would look more normal on enrollment day on may 27. thanks mom.

and so, here i am now. a monster. my chicken ass brother got scared the first time he saw me yesterday. my sister brought him to my room to see me and all he did was grabbed my sister's hand like a 2 year old and talked to my sister in this little voice, "baba na tayo, atsi." he's 11 years old for pete's sake!

cant exactly blame the dude. i also dont like looking at myself in the mirror. morbid. my eyelids are swelling and colored violet. each of my eyelid is sewn together making them bulge more. and because i really want to gross you out, there's dry blood on the sewn part making it look more disgusting. my eyes look smaller and until now, they are still not...in equal sizes? basta, hindi siya pantay! i dont know why.

the operation took more than an hour. i dont know why again. my sister's took less than an hour and hers was painless. guess it depends on the surgeon. the operation took place at the new bldg. at the back. on the 13th floor. lucky me. a nurse asked me to wear a hospital gown over my street clothes and asked me to change my sandals with the slippers the hospital provided. they asked me to lie down the operating table? bed? a nurse cleaned my face with a lot of...tissue wipes? haha, i dont really know. two big glaring lights blinded me when they opened. surprisingly, i did not get scared. then i saw doc sia tiong gam, complete with a cap and mask. thank God, i did not see him with a scalpel. i just blinked up at him while he talked to his assistant, a guy who flirts a lot with the nurses. a nurse came up to the doc and asked him about numbers. sizes apparently. sizes of what? i found out later it's the injection. or size of the syringe. i dont know. they did my right eyelid first. i was awake the whole time and the only pain i felt was something slicing on my eyelids. i also smelled different things like pentelpen and something burning.

most of the time, i just listened to the conversation around me. the surgeon was concentrating and did not talk much. but his assistant? the flirt. he talked, joked, cajoled, teased and did other verbal actions that got the two nurses (one married, the other one graduating next next week i think) giggling and flirting back. the assistant only got a little quiet when the surgeon asked him for the skin hooker. i dont know what it looks like but it apparently hooks my eyelid and pulls it open. it doesnt hurt because the slicing part i first felt in the beginning turns out to be the big injection, which has anaesthesia, piercing through my skin. ugh. anyway, my eyes were open most of the time when they got at the sewing part. i saw the thread. i saw the tool they used as a needle, and well, i just told myself to calm down and not panic. i think that i was basically expressionless throughout the whole procedure. poker face. haha. yep, expressionless even when i heard the assistant made a sound because the thread broke. even when i felt my own blood run down my face. even when i saw blood on the clothe the nurse was holding. thinking back now, i dont know how i manage it.

i talked to God a couple of times. basically asked him to make everything all right.
and yeah, i guess everything will be fine---after many weeks. thank God the bleeding stop today, yesterday, i can still feel blood dripping from my operation, scared my mother. parang im crying blood kasi. haha.

im actually so pathetic yesterday. i had nothing to do. i cant read book because my eyes have trouble focusing. i cant even look up straight because it hurts, so im always looking down. angie, this is the reason why i cant ym with you yesterday, i have trouble looking at the screen. haha. i feel better now. ponstan works! i dont feel any pain right now, except if i sneeze or laugh out loud. the only irritating thing so far is when my sister and mother stares at me like i sprout horns on my head. my brother still refuses to come near me. his loss.

right now, i always have my sunglass and eyeglass with me. even when im in the cr. i just dont feel right exposing my morbidness, if there's such a word, to people around me.

when you see me, dont stare.

hey yo!

mwahaha...bwahaha....

well, anyway, my bro (the elder one) is going to atlanta, georgia (is that the right spelling?) tomorrow monday. he's going to stay there for two months. his company, mitchell and madison (again, not sure with the spelling), is sending him there because they lack people. he's the one chosen because he's already an american citizen due to being born there 22 years ago.dang it, he always has all the luck.

life is again...so good!!! no big brother for two months!! bwahaha. dont worry, i dont hate the elder dude, we (the rest of the siblings and i) just got use to no big brother on weekdays. and guess what, for some unknown reason, we prefer it when he's living in an aunt's house. just gets to show you that we're not really a close family. huhuhu...sniff!

im serious now: you know what makes me cry? not because of sadness but because of anger? my father. he can be crappy some times. but im not going to make an issue here. just want to vent a little of something out.

well, at least he's the one who paid for most of the things my brother will need in the u.s., like clothes, techie stuff and other tsuva. well, he should, after what he's always doing. nakakainis talaga. naaawa ako sa mama ko.

well, anyway, you guys enjoy your summer!! im trying to. it's just that i already have scars because of the bloody warts!! dont worry guys, im facing this wart problem as bravely as i can. ;)

mommy, i feel hot

vacation has come! life is good...if you dont think about the problems life brings..

musta naman kayo mga pips?? ako...well, tumaba raw according sa dad ni princess arreola. haha. nakita ko kasi sila sa church (united evangelical church of malabon) kanina.

well, ganun talaga ang buhay pag hindi stress...wahahaha...inggit kayo mga nagpupuyat dyan noh.

okay lang naman ako dito...di pa alam kung ano talaga gusto ko gawin sa bakasyon. for now, i spend time watching tv and reading showbiz stuffs. haha...kasayahan ko talaga sa buhay ang usisain ang buhay ng may buhay.

bumili popsy ko ng mga dvd's sa divisoria nung friday. ang isa sa mga binili niya twilight. haha...pinanood ko again...ang comment ko lang talaga ay ang pangit ni robby patty!! ba't ganun noh? kung sino pa ang pinakabida siya pa ang pinakapangit? yun actor na nag-play as james pogi pag maikli ang buhok. napanood ko kasi siya sa unborn (now showing). okay naman yun movie na "the unborn." nakakagulat. haha.

"jamby wants to be born again"

well anyway, kinilig mama ko sa twilight. pinanood niya nga uli the second time ngayong umaga (pinanood na niya kagabi). kaya ngaun, nagbabasa momsy ko ng twilight. bumalik siya sa kanyang teenage years! hahaha..

well, good luck sa inyo dyan!! yun mga may klases at exams pa!! at ako? magpapataba pa lalo. heehee

what else is new

10 useless happenings in my life:

1. i finally possessed the pc solely. my sister finally has her laptop. problem is, the pc has a virus

2. i failed to attend church these past few sundays. so many stupid reasons.

3. im one of the contestants of the intercollegiate pautakan contest. it's a group competition. it's kinda like a quiz bee. our college is one of the lowest. which is something new, since the college of rehabilitation sciences is usually one of the hightest in the list. apparently, im the bad luck since im the only one who's new in the group. and you know what's pissing me off? lumabas ang question kung ano sinimulan ni robert baden powell. turns out im the only one who knew the dude. courtesy of sir eug. anyway, mali pa rin kami. kasi the answer should be scout/boy scouts but i wrote scouting movement. i still dont know the difference between the two.

4. i still hate our theo prof (see #5)

5. since i was excused that day (because of the pautakan), i missed the 2nd quiz in theo. and since she is lazy to make another quiz, she refuses to give me a make-up test. and since she is ALWAYS FORGETFUL, she did not excused me but instead wrote "absent" on the attendance sheet even though my friend just told her that im excused! sum of 2 quizzes is equal to 100 points. i only got 20 points on the first quiz. she didnt hear me say that i was running for honors. i know that because she said that if i pass her subject, she wouldnt give me a special project. the good news is i think im going to pass her subject because my first shifting grade is high enough. the bad news is that i'll probably get a 3 because she will compute my grade with my non-existent second quiz. in short, i'll get 20 over 100! dang it!

6. we have no final exam on phil lit. instead we watch zsa zsa zaturnnah (starred by eula valdez, the only other actress i know there is wilma doesnt) at the ccp last sunday. the musical play is funny and entertaining. a lot of obscene comments and lewd remarks in the script though. and some of the scenes are disturbing (i.e. the kissing of guy and a gay). and there was a guy there who loves to show his abs. anyway, i just hate it because i didnt do well in my reaction paper. i got the names of the characters wrong and i didnt follow directions on how the paper was suppose to be printed. i got so many deductions na tuloy. and it's equivalent to our finals. and who knows what else since our phil lit prof doesnt give quizzes and i have a big fat ZERO on recitation.

7. finals next week. craaaaaaaaap! first one on monday is theo. im not trying to be mean here, just stating the fact, ANG DAMING TRADITIONS NG CATHOLIC! HIRAP ARALIN! and of course, our theo is worse because of the prof.

8. another exam on monday is math. okay na sana eh, kaya lang puro problem solvings. i hate problems solving, simply because i suck at it. nawala pa sci-cal ko. huhu.

9. this is not really a happening in my life, but an opinion. i hate hoping. i hate having goals. i hate dreaming. someday, i'll probably tell you why.

10. um...okay, probably the most serious one. i committed a tiny, itty bitty sin just this thursday. i dont know if God is punishing me or what, but i had a bad day on friday. but that's not the issue here. the issue here is that i wasnt able to sleep well this saturday morning. i dont understand what i feel. it's something like worry, guilt, fear, anxiety...whatever tsuva...depression...i dont know! i said sorry to God but i havent confess my crime to that person. well, that person is scary. so well, i dont know what to do now. why do Christians have to suffer? no scratch that, i deserve to suffer, not other Christians. im really a moron.

baby wanna hug...

nakakatamad mag-post. haha.

finals namin sa march 16 to 20. cant wait.

my life is still the same.

well, not really. i went to church this last two sundays. im now trying to take my spiritual life seriously.life is becoming more meaningless without Him. ^_^

my academic life is fine. except that i flunk my total grade in comparative anatomy lab this 2nd shift. 57 grade ko. passing 60. tinamad kasi mag-aral eh. haha. 1st time ko bumagsak sa total grade ng isang shift. pero okay lang, pasado pa naman pag combine together with my 1st shifting grade. and pwede pa bumawi this last shifting. but it's more difficult. PUSA NA KAMI!! we're going to dissect Krizzy's relatives this friday. for now kasi, we're studying the 90 muscles of the cat pa. 90x3=270. boo!

what's the times 3 for? that's for the origin (where the muscle originates), insertion (where the muscle move during action) and action of each cat muscle. we have to memorize them by friday.it's hard because some of the origins and insertions are long phrases. aralin mo ngayon, kalimutan mo na next day. di pa ako nangangalahati!! tapos sa 90 muscles na yun, 25 lang ilalabas sa test. boo!

nung friday night nga di ako nakatulog masyado. kasi before i slept,i studied some of the muscles. kaya ayun. nagigising ako at the middle of the night with different muscle names running through my head...pectoantebrachialis...supraspinatus..flexor digitorum profundus...extensor carpi radialis longus...iliocostalis...wala pa yang OIA ah!

but then, as long as di pa ako nagpupuyat, okay lang. haha.

theo continues to suck. specifically our theo prof.

my multiply ako. pero di ko talaga multiply. haha. wala akong contribution sa multiply na toh. friends ko sa ust ang gumawa. tapos joint account pa siya.di ko nga alam ba't pangalan ko pa ginamit. tingnan niyo na lang kung gusto niyo para makita niyo a part of my life in ust. but if you're gonna comment there, dont put anything about this blog!!!

click here!

long time no post

gotta be quick. baka magtopak uli globe. ilang beses na ako nag-attemp na mag-post, kaya lang di kaya mag-publish. hmf!

dont worry, i dont have anything yucky to tell you guys. im trying to get to know my spiritual self better. haha. last saturday our whole class went to tarlac. up the mountain to attend mass. sosyal noh, misa lang sa taas pa ng bundok. dun kami sa monastery of tarlac. parang baguio nga, zigzag and daanan paakyat. dun kasi nakatago yun isa sa mga 3 pieces ng cross ng jesus. di naman pinakita yun cross mismo, yun lalagyan lang. boo! walang kwenta. tapos ngaun pinapagawa kami ng "mahabang" reflection paper.

pero in fairness, ang ganda ng lugar. maliit lang yun simbahan, pero yun area surrounding it maganda. tapos makikita mo yun mga mountains, yun village na may maliliit na mga bahay, yun malawak na green grass...ay basta, maganda siya. sorry, di ako poet. i cant describe it very well. all i know is if i were a painter, i would have love to stay there forever and paint the scenery. naks!

enjoy naman buong klass. may karaoke pa sa bus ride. by class number! so walang takas! guess what i sang? alam mo naman, ironic talaga buhay ko. galit ako kay sarah geronimo pero napunta pa rin sa akin yun "forever is not enough" niya. pero okay na rin yun, kaysa kay piolo pascual. yuck! yun ibang songs may rap, natuwa buong class kasi pati theo prof namin naki-rap. hahaha...

pero dun lang siya nakakatuwa. kasi ba naman, ang arte niya. pinadonate niya kami. each and everyone of us. isang sako ng bigas, cooking oil, mga kape, gatas, condiments, toothbrushes, toothpastes etc...pero nagcomplain pa rin theo prof namin. umabot ng 2 boxes and 2 big plastics ang donation ng buong class, pero ang sabi niya, "kung ganyan lang kaunti ang ibibigay niyo, wag na kayo pumunta." hello, sino tinatakot niya? parang may gusto pumunta sa una. kasi naman, 5:45 am ang leave ng bus. anong oras na kaya kami magigising. eh 6:30 pm pa naman uwian namin the day before kasi may lab. parang di niya alam tuloy kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng "donation".

ay bahala siya.

wala kami paxok ngaun!!! wahahaha. st. tomas aquinas day kasi. pero dami namang assignments and quizzes. kasi prelim week na namin next week. as usual, nagpoprocastinate rin yun mga profs dito.

nakakatuwa compa lab namin ngaun. lalo na yun practicals. lahat kami bagsak! hahaha....well...

we just dissected sharky cielo (shark ng group ko; 4 kami sa isang group). ang lalaki ng liver niya! parang saging! haha. pero mas malaki pa sa saging. dissected na rin si pidgeotto (our pigeon). wala kaming turtles, sa ibang group yun. pero pinatay na rin. kawawa nga mga hayop eh. yun mga pigeons nilunod, pero di naman sila nag-struggle. tapos sa mga turtles naman, hinila yun mga ulo para i-injection yun leeg ng lason. sniff. tapos ang brutal ng pagtanggal ng mga shells (carapace and plastron). ginamit ang saw. tapos makikita mo yun mga dugo dugo. madugo rin sa pigeon. ginupit mga ribs, pagkatapos hinila ang lahat ng feathers, para makita yun mga visceral organs. makikita mo yun mga gloves namin puro dugo talaga. parang nag-opera kami ng tao.

pero there's one subject that still didnt change. p.e. volleyball. di pa rin ako marunong mag-serve. yun pinanood ko yun twilight, nasabi ko sa sarili ko na i know how bella feels. kasi sa amin, sa akin din lagi patungo ang bola at di ko talaga siya natatamaan ng maayos. at ilang beses na rin akong natamaan sa kung anu-anong parte ng aking katawan. sniff.

pero you know what again? i feel happy. i dont know why. a while ago, i was eating lunch, and then i realized that im happy. parang ang dami bigla ng endorphins ko sa katawan. gusto ko sumigaw sa tuwa. pero i dont really know why. i just feel happy. i kept on thanking God nga eh. though i dont know what He did to me. buti ngaun medyo nag-normal na emotions ko. haha

you know what's yuckier?

my ust friend came from Baguio and gave me a keychain gift. you know, the typical keychains that are made of wood.

it has my name written on it.

and the disgusting part?

it's shape like a penis.

well, it was carved to be like a penis. very detailed actually.

not that i know what one really looks like.

it's my sister who affirmed it since as a student nurse, she sees a lot of penises on her duties.

and now, i have a very hard penis in my room........hehe >_<

it's january????

do you know that pringles has lactic acid? oh sorry, stupid question. it's just that the internet is soooo slow that i had nothing to do but read the ingredients printed on the pringles can. this is all my elder brother's fault. he did nothing in his christmas break but download movies. maybe i should call the cops and report about a brother of mine who's pirating movies. that should put him out of the house. but then, my mother might murder me if she realizes that she has to produce money for the bail.

wow, i just realized that my last post is on december 4. almost a month from now. well, i dont have anything to apologize since i have nothing to post anyway. or that my sister is hogging the computer most of the break. or that stupid globe doesnt give a good signal for the internet.

you wanna know what i've been doing this break? aside from the sleeping for more than 12 hours and eating and drinking and watching pirated dvd's my father bought? why should i tell? it's embarrassing. you'll just laugh. or maybe pity me.

okay.

i've been reading books.

love stories.

specifically romantic stories about "virile" indian men and "passionate" white women.

yeah, gag right.

these books are old. well, older than the stupid 19 years (ouch!) of my existence. these are the books my mother and her sisters loved to read when they were teenagers. my mom gave these books to my sister and i. i dont know if i should even consider them as my inheritance. hahaha.

crap, im so mean. my mom and 4 aunts love these books.

but anyway, some of the books are not that bad. i mean some have serious plots and are not wholly about romance. and i have to admit the novels are informative about the history of america. the wars and the treaties between the whites and the reds (indians). though i didnt really remember the name of the wars and treaties. im reading for entertainment, not history.

and i tell you, i was really entertained!!

wahahaha...

dont worry, im not becoming some pervert who enjoy the sex and rape parts. it's just that some of the scenes are really ridiculous and i just cant take them seriously. there's this novel entitled "cheyenne captive" about a 'virile' indian who kidnapped a white woman.

well anyway, i cant take it seriously because the white woman is naked half of the novel. okay, almost half of the novel. im serious. what is wrong with the author anyway? and the white woman and the indian already had sex on chapter 3. ugh. and they had more sex. and more. but that's not the reason she was naked almost half of the story. it's because she was almost rape four times by different man of different cultures. can you believe that? there were indian, two americans and a spanish rapist. geez. but she was never raped because her indian lover would always come on the nick of time. sayang! the indian's name is Iron Knife. so you can always read the white woman saying these lines breathlessly....."Oh Iron Knife, i knew you would come....Oh Iron Knife, i wouldnt know what to do without you!!.....You are my life Iron Knife, i would never go back to Boston!, it's only you that i want!!" and my personal favourite..."Iron Knife, take me!!"

wahahahahaah......grabe, nakakatawa talaga!! pati sa mga rape scenes natatawa ako!!

actually, i think the author is a sadist. there was this antagonist indian girl name Gray Dove. she's always trying to seduce Iron Knife with her big boobs. anyway, she was gang raped when she was 14. the scene was so detailed actually. shudder. but you dont have to pity Gray Dove. she's ruthless. Gray Dove also had sex a lot of times with different men so you can imagine how many sex parts the novel has.

when i think about it now, i dont know where the climax of the novel is. parang tuloy tuloy lang kasi yun story. no climax. it just end. and i really got pissed off because the author kept on repeating the same adjectives...soft shoulders...heavy breasts...tiny waists...but nothing could beat this when it comes to the number of times mentioned..."she could see his manhood rising under the loincloth" or something like that.

hahaha....

i am now very disturb....but have no fear...im trying to bring my brain back in order by reading gaudium et spes written by the second vatican council for my theo report this january.

: )